10 years ago (i was 15) i split with my first boyfriend of 2 years, now heres the bad bit he finnished with me on the phone just after i had told him that my father had died that morning, my life was in turmoil and was on a path to self distruction, 12 months after this i started to straighten up even though things were still emotionaly hard and met this man, 3 years later we married and i thought the love for this other man would go away i have now been married 6 1/2 years and the love for this other man is still there, i have 2 children with my husband and i am ashamed to say it but the love i have for him is not nor ever has been intense, my ex has a child the same age as my eldest son and his family still speak when we cross paths, we have now moved out of the county so this dosent happen any more, i dont know what to do 10 years should be plenty of time to get over someone so why oh why do i love him enough to feel sick at the mention of his name. i am betraying my husband, i have tried to contact him for closer thinking this might help but he dosent speak, i feel like this man has a grasp on my soul, what do i do?
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