14 year old depression

Question

I'm 14 years old.

I'm pretty regular.

I want to write and act and direct when I'm older.

I like to be goofy and random and make short films with friends and draw and listen to music.

But the other side of me is.. horrible.

I don't have many friends.

My best friend is an overdramatic ****** and if she doesn't get her way she gets mad, so she dumped me. My best friend is her boyfriend, but she tells him bad stuff so now he's starting to not like me either.

I've seen one person all summer, and that was middle of July. She only let me come over cuz I begged and she wanted something to do.

I've had one boyfriend for a month but he dumped me and spread rumors so now my whole grade thinks I'm a S****y ***** even though I told everyone none of it is true.

I went to camp and met some people there, but now that camps over they dont want anything to do with me.

I'm really nice and easygoing, and funny, sometimes I can be bossy, but not super bossy, just kinda like "go to this website" not saying "you should go to this website".But other than that I'm pretty cool. I dress fine, I'm not a super nerd, or super prep or any of that, and I have a wide variety of interests.

My mom yells at me a lot.

I hardly see my dad cuz he works 5 days a week at nighttime, so he sleeps during the day.

I've never had a first kiss.

I'm so depressed all the time.

I want to be a Disney Channel Star more than anything, that's my biggest dream, and just, my parents don't want me to, so I can't, and I'm so depressed all the time and I dunno what to do!

I've gone through a suicide stage once or twice, but the last time was sometime in May. I don't wanna kill myself.

I've ran away 2 or 3 times.

IDK WHAT TO DO I'M SO MISERABLE.

no this isn't lalala teenage c**p okay, so don't gimme that.

Answer 1

i don't know what to say about this.... wow you have gone though so much. well if you fam and friends treat you like c**p i can be your friend. my e mail is [e-mail] if you wanna talk i'll talk . im really sorry.and also i used to be deppressed a little and i found God and he helped alot. so if you wanna talk take up my offer.

Answer 2

i know what u mean i pretty much have no friends either and i've done nothing all summer im depressed too

Answer 3

all this drama.. wow..

I learned early on in highschool to ignore it..ignore ALL OF IT.  HS is such a minor blip in your life that it really does not matter what happens. thing you have to remember is everyone else is trying to figure out their lives in the same way you are. Sometimes this manifests itself in strange and mean ways. (ie your friend being mad at you for some moronic reason and then getting her bf to dislike you) Ignore it.

I did not leave HS with the same friends I started with.. as a matter of fact I had to make new ones about the age of 13 or 14.. ah well, my life wasnt over and neither is yours. Find one friend to keep you going threw HS, once you leave (especially if you go to college) youll find it a much different more mature world

Answer 4

u r just like me,,i am 12. turning 13 in november, dont suicide ur self!!!