(8) I Fake A Smile............?

Question

Im so fake. I Hate Wanna' Be's and plastic.

But im as fake as them. I Always Smile. But Yet Im Never Happy. =/

And Yeh I Have Reasently broke up with my boyfriend But Im Not Gonna Use That as an excuse.

I really miss my dad to. i havent see himfor 2years and he hates me for being 'goth' even though im not :(

I miss him so much, plus i dont want to speak to my mum about it because he really hurt her, and i dont want to upset her by tellinger imiss him.

I cant keep being fake. i hate it. and now i dont even know who i am..

please help me

Answer 1

Okay one thing that helped me like idk if u dress in the goth way and no offense if u do or anything but when i started wearing brighter colors and pretty clothes and stuff it chaned my attitude  

Answer 2

Don't be fake. Express your feelings and don't ever be someone you are not. People will like you for who you are or they won't like you for who you are. Only they can make that decision and if you fake your way through the beginning they will discover the truth at some point. So be yourself and enjoy life, Why does he hate you for being goth if you are not just maybe a little? There is nothing wrong with it in my opinion you understand. Some people just do not understand that life style. Talk to him, maybe it is something else all together and not that. Just remember,  be yourself and don't feel any guilt for who you are.

Answer 3

U need to talk to someone it sounds like u are on the verge to a NERVOUS BREAKDOWN. talk to some one soon  

Answer 4

I'm so sorry to hear that but you should just pray to God Jesus christ I am a christian and I will pray for you and your family idk if this video will help but here it is

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-od10igug...

and I think that if you talk to your mom she might tell you that it is ok that you miss I mean he is still your dad right well hope I helped Godbless.

Answer 5

If you aren't happy, then you should talk to someone about it. Lot's of times, just letting it out helps a lot.

Also, if missing your dad is what makes you feel so sad, then you need to talk to him. Do you have his phone number? or even his email?

Tell him that you miss him, and that you want to see more of him.

Even though he hurt your mom, she should understand that it's important to you that you be close to both of them. Make sure you let her know that you don't want to push her out of your life, just that you want him to be in it more as well.  

I'm sure having just broken up with your boyfriend is also part of what's making you feel sad, but sometimes things just don't work out in relationships. You sound like you're a young one, so don't worry, you have a lot of time left to find the person who's right for you.

And as to not knowing who you are... If you fake being happy... then you're probably a person who does want to be happy. It's not the same as faking being nice to someone and then stabbing them in the back. Trust me, that's much worse!

The thing is, right now you're just feeling down. Sometimes, that happens. But an important part of growing (doesn't matter how old you ware) is learning how to deal with times like these, when you feel down.

I don't know if anything I've said could be any help to you, but I hope it has. If not, try talking to someone who's around you. Or, there are lots of free call lines that you could call... they're anonymous and the people who you talk to actually have degrees and things, so they know what they're talking about. Kids Help Phone line is a good one that I used to volunteer with. It's a Canadian site, but it won't matter to them if you're not. Check out their website, you can ask online or call them.

Good luck! I hope everything works out!

Answer 6

I agree with Gem Gem about your dad not hating you. He probably just saw your unhappiness and misread it, and now... he doesn't hate you, he just doesn't want you to grow up like that. And your mom...you should awlays be able to talk to your mom about anything, but you could go to a school counselor(if you're that young) or you could go to a public counselor to talk to. As for who you are, only you can find that. I found who i was when i was happiest in my life, but then i found more of who i really was at the saddest na dhardest times in my life. When you are happy again,(and don't worry, things WILL get better) you will bea bale to look back and put your past self together with your current self and that will be who you are. I am sorry you had to break up with your bf. That sounds like its really a blow for you.:(

If you want to stop being fake, find friends, talk to someone, and look deep within yourself for the hidden happiness. There has to be someone out there that can help you through the rough times. :) Look up towards the bright sun and leave the darkness of the depression cave behind you. Look into the future and don't look back, don't let the past effect you. If you have wounds from the past, (as your father) heal them (try talking to him) and move on. Walk into your future with your head held high and your pide, dignity, and happiness glowing warmly within your soul.

I really do hope that this helps. :)

Answer 7

Your dad does not hate you, i bet he misses you just as much and would love it if you went to visit him. Your mum will not get upset if you tell her you miss him, it will make you both closer, her happy that you told her, you could sort something out. I bet your mum expects you to be missing your dad, so letting her no that you do, will be no shock to her. If you want to see you dad, try talking to your mum and arranging for something to be done. Your mum is your mum and should go out of her way to make you happy, same with your dad. Go tell her how you feel, she needs to know. Good Luck with what you decide to do :) Things can only get better x