A question about my eating disorder?

Question

okay. so I almost died from an eating disorder a few years back. diagnosed at 11 yada yada yada. went through treatment, I had been doing great. lately I have been struggling. I had this pact with a friend last school year and we were gonna lose a c**p load of weight. but I was able to resist over the summer. now that I am back in school with her I've been going down hill. like I had lost some weight. I can see my ribs more and all. but I haven't lost a ton.

but last night a big thing happened. I don't really wanna get in to it. but all I'm gonna say is that we had to put a pet down today. I left school early.

and I had to go to McDonald's with my mom, then taco bell with my sister, then portillos for dinner.

and yea... I ate. but I hated every minute of it.

and now its like... I get hungry for a few seconds. but I cant eat. its not even b/c I don't want to. its just food doesn't seem appealing.

I'm not sure if its just the general depressed dont wanna get out of bed thing. or if its my eating disorder in the back of my mind telling me that its no big deal.

so I am really confused

any advice would be greatly appreciated

Answer 1

it is just depression i understand

i us to be anarexic blah blah blah

lol

i us to wiegh 180 lbs

then in like 2 months i was 148!

so im still a bit chubby but i us to neve eat then like my stomach went smaller and so when i did eat it was like very very little

then when i found out my bf cheated on me i just stoped eating cuz of depression

so it is just depression you will get over it

and be back on the road to FOOD!!! lol