A very disturbing dream please help?

Question

i had a dream the other night that i can only describe as my own prologue to a tale similar to the 1973 film exorcist.

i was deeply disturbed by it and couldnt get back to sleep.

abbas ' angel eyes ' was playing before i went to sleep that night..

the dream :

a pale european beautiful little girl of around 13 visiting her distant aunt with her mother...

it was happening....something was....coming..

the girls aunt lived far away in a cold distant climate with very few or no people at all..

the visit had ended and the girl and her mother were preparing to fly home..

when they arrived at the airport, it was strangely deserted, very few people around.....all non descript......the odd airport staff here and there..

the girl was sleepy, and dreamely calm, ready to come home, giggling with her mother as they went through the airport terminal..

the girl was also strangely distant, subdued to...

the airport was silent....you could hear a pin drop.....outside the airport it was very cold with deep grey mirky skies....little activity....silent and deserted..

a knowingness of what is to come ?

the atmosphere distant.....quiet..

the decor of the airport was orange carpets, grey walls and lime green walls

the dream flashed to the image of the girl putting her favorite toys in her luggage to be ready to fly back that night..

strange looking alien toys with disturbing other worldy faces...weird unusual bodies.....heads that dangled over and were loose on the dolls necks.....

a knowingness ? a premonition ?

that night the large mansion house they lived in with too many floors and rooms was dark.....silent...

her mother was getting her nightgown on her daughter and was troubled and worried by the look on her daughters face...

the look of acceptance of knowingness of inevitability.....a dreamy distant gaze.....hair let down and out.......ready for bed......her room was right at the top of the house..

to get to her room you had to ascend four flights of stairwells..

outside the deep purple of night had arrived....cold, silent....the house was quiet...empty.

they lived in a remote setting...civilisation didnt seem to exist..

with her nightgown on , the girl was quiet...subdued and far off....dreamy....she knew it was going to happen tonight..

her mum was deeply worried at this point and asked ' are you sure your ok ? '

the girl with a dreamingly look nodded, smiled, a smile of goodbye ?

she was ready to retire to bed....her mum knew....but at the same time didnt know..

her mum was disturbed by the look on her daughters face, she didnt recognise the look, but at the same time.....she recognised it..

the girl ascended the dark, long , silent, lonely stairs that would eventually take her to her room..

the houses lights all dimmed with low power...

at that point i woke up from the dream, but it deeply disturbed me.....i tried to capture the essence of it as i wrote it here..

what do you think it could mean ?

afterwards i was very scared i couldnt go back to sleep, i live in a one bedroom flat on disability on my own as i have done for 3 years...

im 30 now i have bpd and ptsd btw.

Answer 1

You could almost write a thriller novel , i don't know what it could mean thou maybe a sense of loneliness

Answer 2

That's a beautiful dream, and it's satisfying to remember so much of it, especially the feeling.

The airport shows a desire to be free, to leave where you are and the empty airport shows that you are not able to leave yet.  Your leaving is delayed.

The girl symolizes your childlike, innocent nature?  Do you also have any desire to act?

The people being non-existent, or non-descript, symbolizes those around you are unimportant to you, and you pay little attention to them.

I would say that something is about to happen for you, and you will find much contentment in it.  The number 13 means end and beginning, change and transition.  This backs up what I just said.

You have a friendly disposition, sociable, but are depressed and suffer ill health.  But a positive change is coming.

The silence could indicate that you, or someone you are close to, feels unable to express your/themselves properly, or maybe you feel self conscious?

The anticipation also is symbolic of impending change.  Enjoy it.

Answer 3

hmm wow well you wrote that very beautifluly !  when  you were writing it, did any feelings come up that maybe could explain it ? im not sure but there was a lot of emphasis on a knowingness of whats to come. Maybe you are fearing something ? another thing, since you said this was like a prelogue to the excorsist, perhaps you feel like you're losing control over something, and you can feel it/ see it coming

Answer 4

BPD, PTSD and too much TV, I think.  You compared your dream to a movie, my first clue, that makes me think that they may have influenced your dreams.  The other conditions that you mentioned are not going to help your dream state, either.  Maybe try focusing on more positive forms of entertainment, if you have been watching horror or intense drama.  Something lighter for your subconcious to work with.  

Best wishes...Sage

Answer 5

What is bpd and ptsd...anyway I think dreams can mean something but sometimes there just a jumble of things which your mind decided to throw together...it could mean some scary s*** but what are the odds of that.

Answer 6

It is a dream - it means nothing - your mind is not relaxed and your brain is mixing up loads of different info.

Simply a dream - nothing more than that