A weird dream & me waking up crying, explain?

Question

First I was with my ex, we were hanging out like we use to. He was really happy & telling me how much he wanted to see me again & said "I missed you so much Ashley" I was so happy. Then I smile at him like I was really surprised & said "You're so adorable! I love you so much" Jumped on top of him hugging him so tightly. I didn't want to let go but somehow I knew I was dreaming. I told myself. "Please don't wake up"

The next thing I knew I was in another dream. Like I was in a fight with 4 girls & one of them was one of my best friend I guess, even tho I've never even met her. They all started to crowded up on me & start to beat me up. I started to fight back & all of a sudden I grab my "best friend" who was a stranger to me & told her "PLEASE! STOP! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? WHY ARE YOU HURTING ME. DON'T DO IT. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! please stop" I started to cry. I was in the hotel & my mom was in the other bed, & she woke me up bc she heard me crying.

Answer 1

You love your boyfriend still. You want him back, even if you don't realise that. However you don't want to make this step to claim him back because you are afraid that other people will criticise you and consider you desperate or things. The fact that you considered an unknown person as a best friend means that you take other people's opinions, even strangers' really seriously. Make a try to make up with your ex again, I don't know if you fit, but I believe that it will help you calm down.