Ahhhhhh im screwed up and confused!!!! help meeeeee =[...?

Question

okay sooo im an almost 14 year old, and im thinking i have depression.

i always feel like i have to put on this frickin act that im happy. it bugs the h**l outta me to be honest. i mean, at school when im around my friends, i seem perfecttly happy(and i guess i am) and normal. but when i get home and am not around people, i turn into this whole other person. i think "why couldnt i live someone elses life?". a lot of the time i hate my lif and think it sucks A LOT. and also i have cut myself before. only twice though. another thing! im so inspired by the whole "emo" or scene girls! i looove how they dress, and look, and everything! the

only thing is im afraid that ill change even more, and also whatt my family and friends will think.. and that depresses me even more...

i think im supposed to be this other person, but i dont know what to

think or do, or anything anymore...

can someone please just help me outt??? explain and help, maybe if u feel like this too??? =[

Answer 1

i think you should try to figure out what is making you feel like this, if you don't know why you are feeling this way you might have depression problems and if you talk to someone about it you can get a pill you take for it. . . my friend had to do this. . . if you dont think thats the problem it might just be something your going through since your stilll young but i def think you should try talking to your parents or a teacher or someone

Answer 2

It sounds like as long as you're surrounded by others, you're happy.  Is there a reason you get depressed when you go home?  Is there someone/something there you feel is holding you back from becoming the person you feel you would like to be?  Does it  bother you to be alone, and if so, why?  

There are a lot of questions that you need to find answers for so you can help yourself.  Right now, my best advice I think is to be yourself and don't worry about becoming like others.  Sure, you're at the age you are trying to figure out just who you are, and that is fine, but don't feel pressured to be anyone except yourself.  

Do you show a different personality at school that you do at home? Do you act different?  I wish I had more answers and less questions for you, but I think if you think about why you feel different depending who you are with and where you are, then you will find some answers there.

For right now, just try to enjoy your friends and happy times at school and try to keep your mood happy when you get home..  try to keep busy and make an honest effort to keep your spirits up and I think you will turn this around.  You are at the age where it is normal to be a bit moody.