Am I a paranoid person?

Question

I am starting to think I am a paranoid person because I always think the worst of myself. It started when I was just 4 years old and I was jealous of my new born sister. I school if I didn't get 100 percent I would get a lump in my throat and feel like I failed. In school, even though I am constantly told I am stunning I never felf good enough to approach the 'cool kids' and would be shy if they talked to me. Now I am in a long term relationship and find myself always finding fault with it.

a)Am I paranoid?

b) What can I do to improve my situation?

Answer 1

I am exactly the same. I don't think it's paranoya as much as just not wanting to disapoint or mess up, you know? I hope you find a solution. By the way, everybody is jealous when a new sibling enters the family. I was anyway.

Answer 2

go an hero. its the only way

Answer 3

Not paranoid, it seems you may have a compulsive disorder. Striving to meet expectations set by you that may be too high. Learn to love yourself and know that not one person in this world is perfect. You will always find fault but no need to dwell on it. Wishing you the best.  

Answer 4

You're a perfectionist, definitely not paranoid. What you can do is realize that the best is not always necessary, and what you can do is enough. Everyone has flaws, look past them.