Every time i think about a party or the possibility of a party, i think about getting drunk and doing loads of drugs and then all i want to do is get drunk and high. i have these thoughts even when I'm alone. i am 16 yrs old.
i have a small hidden safe in my room, it contains a flask of vodka, 4 packets of cigarettes and an array of drugs including ecstasy and cocaine. i am telling the truth.
i spend 100% of my time thinking about when i can next have a cig or a pill.
every party i go to i get horribly drunk and out of control, my friends think its funny but the good friends are a bit worried.
i feel as if i want to spend my life at a never ending party where there are loads of drugs and women and it never ends.
i suppose i am somewhat addicted and am experiencing withdrawal, but what should i do?? i scared cos idon'tt what to become a full on drug addict and spend my life doing drugs.
i think this has gone on past teenage experimentation and i feel like i cant stop.
what can i do???
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