Am I cheating myself or enriching myself in nursing spiritually?

Question

I failed nursing school in Oct 2008. I was disappointed but I decided to suck it up and not see myself as a failure but to say it was not my timing. In the next semester, I worked on an English degree (assoc) and to my surprise I only had 5 courses to take and move on to a univ. This semester I can complete the needed three.

Also, I went to Birmingham AL to take care of a friend's mom. I had resigned from work to finish school and found myself without work and becoming a nurse. I was supposed to stay only one month with my friend's mom but I ended up staying 3 and a half months because they needed help and could not afford it. Eventually, they found someone and I helped by putting in my opinion of the new person.

My daughter said I seriously should have been paid or giving me the $300 that they gave the granddaughter for graduation (HS) because she won't come over to assist in any way or call. I don't see it like that. I see it as giving a good HS gift. Yes, I would have racked up in duckies if I had been paid (over 1,000 hrs of work --- cooking; bathing and cleanings; lite housekeeping) and patient advocacy.

Somehow I feel foolish and other times I feel proud because I prepared her physical therapy again that had been discontinued due to her painful gout and inflammation --- her legs couldn't bend and I stayed longer. Why is it sometimes we do a good deed and then feel foolish because we do things that no one else is willing to do?

Does God work this way?

Answer 1

You're a lightworker. It might not make sense to other people but as long as you are following your heart, you are doing the right thing. I do think that when one is a lightworker, you need to establish boundaries for yourself and remember that in order to take care of others, you have to take care of yourself.

http://www.theangelwhispers.org/what_is_...

http://spiritofthelight.net/lightworker....

I have been in your shoes and actually lost more than I gained...but I think that if I had it all to do again, I would still love just as much and try just as hard.

It's what we do. :)

Answer 2

Doing what you feel is right doesn't always jive with what others think is right, but they are not YOU. You are the only one who can know whether the experience was valuable and worthwhile. I have personally been in places in my life in which I gave far more of myself then I was "paid" for, but the way I see it, money isn't everything. It doesn't even particularly motivate me to do anything I wouldn't normally do without money. As for the $300, I feel the appropriate thing was done with it, and I believe you think so, too. Good luck with your studies. I believe you have the right attitude to succeed at LIFE, whether you ever make a pile of money or not!

Answer 3

Ok let yourself follow what you think is best god will guide you through the rest. (if you ever heard that poem or paragrph you know what I mean it gos some thing like this

the boy sat down on the beach and asked god whhy he was not helping him god answred "Do you see those 2 sets foot steps on the beach that is you walking through life and I am right beside you." They boy folowd the foot teps than only saw one set of foot steps and h looked up to god and asked "Why is there only one set of foot steps here? Did you leave me?" And god looked down at the boy and replyed "No that is were I carried you"

just walk beside god for awile and when you are having a hard time god will carry you."