Am I depressed or is this just my personality or what?

Question

I'm just curious because people have been telling me I need help and I'm really confused.

I guess I'll give you basics:

I'm 13 and female.My mom has terrible mood swings and my dad's an alcoholic. I was diagnosed with anxiety when I was 7 years old. I didn't eat (because food just wouldn't stay down because I was nervous) or sleep much and constantly worried about stupid things. This went on and off until I was 10. I have gotten a lot better.Today, I still seem to be "gloomy". Nothing really seems to be going well for me. Kids at school are vicious and immature. I can never fall asleep at night. I have few friends. I have stupid obsessions over things that don't really matter. I don't feel that I belong or that I am loved. I guess I "self-injure" myself because I wear rubber bands around myself and snap them whenever I feel worthless. Everyday seems to be a constant struggle and repeat of its self.

So whats wrong with me?

NOTE: I know this is my fault and I need to suck it up, but, I try, and it doesn't seem to work. I'm sorry.

Answer 1

sounds like a mixture of depression and anxiety you should see a doctor and speak to a family member or friends

Answer 2

This is NOT your fault in any way and you have to believe that.  

Maybe your mum's mood swings could be bi-polar disorder.  Can you talk to her about this?  I'm a mum too and I also suffer with depression and I would hope my kids could come to me with anything, no matter what.  No mother wants to see their child unhappy.

You must go to your doctor.  If you really don't feel able to go with your mum then maybe another family friend, or a friend's mum.

Your dad's alcoholism is also a disease for which he can get help but he has to want to do that for himself.  My dad was one too and he got help from AA and never touched another drop so it is possible.

Please ask for help from someone you trust.  You should not have to go through this on your own.

Take care.