Am I going mental?? I think I need help! ='[

Question

Hello, I was on the computer aaages ago and I looked at something...I can't bring myself to type it. Innapropriate. Anyway, I have been feeling such Extreme guilt i just don't know what to do. I told my mum dad, and they were understanding, but it hasn't helped me. I just can't forget it, I feel like I have ruined my childhood and my whole life ahead of me. Im putting a brave face on it all but im just dying inside and im not suicidal or anything like that , but I just feel like...I need a hug, and for someone to tell me it's going to be okay...I don't know what to do!! can anyone help me with this? I know I need to do something, but I just don't know how to help myself out of this extreme guilt...I just feel like I have let myself down and that im dirty and strange and that no one will ever like me again...And i just wish I could turn back the clocks and undo it, but i know I can't but im still having these thoughts and it makes me want to cry, but I can't...........='[

Answer 1

aw sounds like what you saw really shocked you now you blame your self it would take to long to try and help you on here

i love helping people and every one says i should be a counsellor so please lets see if i can help you move on from this guilt and enjoy your childhood

My email is [e-mail]

My Yahoo instant messenger is jabman05 ive a already sent you a message to offer to help[ you pleas let me try and help  

Answer 2

no your just feeling guilt, if its bothering you that much go to a doctor and ask to be referred on to a therapist

Answer 3

awwh poor you hun... i cant help you on this sadly it'll take fair too long... but if you wonna PM me i'll do my very best to help you out best i can =] but time heals all ... but talking helps

Answer 4

try to forget whatever it was you saw

Answer 5

I do not think you have anything to feel guilty about.  You gave in to some curiosity and found that you were appalled by what you saw.  You have not acted on it neither have to given in to that curiosity aGAIN .  I suspect that if we knew what it was we would not be horrified.  There is an old saying about turning mountains into molehills and for some reason this is what you are doing.  Do you often feel this excessive guilt - if so then that is the problem not that you looked at something inappropriate.

Answer 6

Well it sounds like you really need someone to help you get through all of this. I have been able to help a few people get through guilty feelings and help them get past it and feel better. If you want I can help you. Just email me. I'm pretty sure I can help you fix this.

-Connor

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Answer 7

It sounds like you have been carrying some heavy burdens.

Find someone to talk with, with whom you can relate.

And who believes in God.

Dear Lord,

Whether this be of the evil one, (Lord rebuke him)...

or be of our friend's traumatic life...

I ask You to remove the cause of these obsessive-compulsive thoughts,

and send help to her at once.

Give him sanity in what sounds like an insane world.

All in accordance with the will of the Father,

and in Jesus' precious and powerful name I do pray!

Amen

† Comforting Prayer Warrior †

Answer 8

I applaud your courage in seeking answers for what you're going through. It takes a brave soul to do what you've done.

My first thought after reading what you've written is to tell you that whatever it is you saw, not to feel guilty about it. I can see that you've been struggling with this, but there are those of us out there in the world who *would* give you a hug if we could - no questions asked. And we wouldn't judge you, as you've done enough of that in your own head as it is.

I'm glad you spoke to your family, even though you feel like it hasn't alleviated your sense of guilt. Talking to someone can be a tremendous relief. Perhaps what you need is to speak to someone that you feel you can relate to on your level, like a friend. If for whatever reason you feel that isn't an option, just know that I'm sure you're not alone in what you've gone through. Without knowing more about what you saw, I'm not sure how else to address your feelings further. But my heart goes out to you. I wish you the best and hope that you find what you need in order to find peace and feel a sense of relief in your heart and your head.