Am I real? Am I fading away?

Question

Sometimes when I can't relate to the people and events around me, or I have been alone for too long, I feel as if I am like a faded out image of a person, or a ghost of what I should have been. Being 42, it is hard to begin at the beginning but it is too far to envision an end. wtf can I do? I have no $$, no driver's license, no job, and even so if I could just believe that I can do something I know I could. I was near the top in grade average all through school and then the abuses and neglect I underwent until 13 was about to destroy me so I went out my bedroom window and never went back without the law forcing me too...even then I just took off again ASAP. I went through a million different things in the years that have followed. I am lucky enough to be physically fit and mentally- not quite as messed up as I could be.

Answer 1

Although you have had many disadvantages in your life, you also seem to have many gifts as well.  Concerntrate on what youDO HAVE in this life and the sun will always come up tomorrow.

To help you feel less like you are fading way, go out and volunteer to help others.  This will make you feel better, feel more like you are contributing to the happiness of others, and in turn happiness will be yours as well.  And when you are with others, you will not fade away, but rather shine!!!

Good luck and happy days  

Answer 2

yes you are real... don't let yourself fade away don't focus on the bad things in life but rather the good ... just get your fancy pants on a big smile and I'm sure that some one will want to hire you... ride your bike its healthier any way and better for the environment ... i was abused when i was a child too but life really does go on if you want it to... if you need to talk you can always e mail me

Answer 3

You are not alone. You are probably suffering from a form of post-traumatic stress and almost any kind of counselling will help you. I've been where you are now, and it's not the end of the world.

Call your local crisis line and ask for Victims of Violence -type services. Most communities have something of that sort available for no cost. It doesn't matter what form of abuse you suffered, it's considered violence. And whatever it was, IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT. You were a child. Everything you've done since then is a reflection of what happened to you then. It's okay, it has happened to lots of us, and you CAN overcome it.

For yourself, I would suggest volunteering somewhere, like a food bank or a soup kitchen, where you can see how others cope and don't cope with their lives, and where you will see yourself helping others. Your self-esteem needs a boost, and getting out there and doing even the smallest thing to help someone worse off than yourself can do wonders.

Find your own inner strength. You were strong enough to get away from the abuse in the first place... now you must be strong enough to leave it behind and get on with living. It's not too late.

Answer 4

  Sweetie you are real and a really kind and compassionate person who has been thru so much heartbreak for your ys on this earth...You are very smart and a d**n good poet and you have a heart of gold ' it's just that things are going a little strange for you probably and it's really stressing you out .Your a survivor like i am as God has a plan for you.I think you should write a poetry book or a book about your hard times and how you never gave up.If i had went thru half  of what  you went thru' i would be a babbling idiot for sure..Your my Idol as you have so much will and strength and one day soon you will find that you can share what gives you your strength...Take care and my prayers are with you always   Cami.