Am I really, gasp, wild?

Question

I have always prided myself with the fact that I am successful (currently in dental school), have worked hard and am responsible. To everyone I meet, I am the wonder girl. I am friendly and nice. So logically, I could never think that I was...gap... wild.

Looking back, and at the present, I have cheated on my ex fiance with my current husband for a year. I received 4 speeding tickets, I consumed so much alcohol my junior year of college and my grades suffered so much that I had to complete an MS program (2 yrs) to get into dental school, I have gone to nude beaches and was stopped by the cops 3 times for messing around in the car on the side of the road. I have kissed random men (before marriage) out at bars, I ripped off a company for $150 on a technicality, I tend towards sadism, I am spontaneous and at times my mom calls me a loose cannon (although she praises me always for my hard work). I still drink too much alone or out with friends, I like starting arguments occasionally with friends, I am sarcastic and I moved 600 mi away from my family just for a change of pace. Am I what I fear? Am I... wild? :-O

LOL... but I do go to church most sundays... I'm Roman Catholic

Answer 1

To be honest, you sound a h**l of a lot like me..except I moved 2,000 miles away and I'm not married. I was always called the "Wild child" or " The bad one" but I also work very hard and am smart...for the most part. SO all I can say is..who cares what others think? To each their own, right?...

Answer 2

Sounds like a typical Catholic coed to me. Yes, WLID.

It's the repression, guilt, and confinement that does it. When you realize that you're free to make your mistakes and reap the results of your choices you'll get free of it. Just got to feel the wind in your face enough to know that deep in your heart.

Answer 3

Going to church does not cure wildness! And don't worry about how wild you are.  It sounds like all you got going on is a misdemeanor crime in there, you like good s*x, and you are smart.  So, if you are wild, so be it, it is working isn't it.  

Just don't think because you go to church means that you are religious, because living the life makes you religious, and your actions could easily be forgiven among today's demon children running around.

Answer 4

I wonder if you’re self-fulfilling the ‘you’re wild’ prophesy/fear?

It seems you cycle between the extremes of moralistic and rebellious. As you say, you’re successful, hardworking, and responsible in work-life, clearly adhering to Christian (Roman Catholic) work ethics. But in your social interactions you’re wilful, as if you’re demolishing the same moral values.

Possibly it’s your fear that pushes the unthinking behaviour that you’re later gasping and guilt-ridden over.  May be a good idea to understand its roots and resolve them.

Answer 5

I love the fact you give these crazy stories, and then you say oh btw, I go to church.  Hypocrite much?

Answer 6

I wouldn't say your wild, you still carry on with responsiblities and your life isn't a complete party.  But you like to have fun, and there's nothing wrong with that.  I went through a period of craziness, including sleeping with my boyfriend's best friend and inviting strange men into my place (didn't sleep with them), even dating a married briefly.  But now I'm married to my boyfriend (13 years) and those crazy times are behind.  I can look back and laugh and appreciate that I had a great time for about five years, no regrets.  And when my daughter gets older and feels the need to spread her wings a bit, I hope I can support her and just be there for her.  As long as you're not hurting anyone else and being safe when you do drink I think you're just a fun person.  Someone I would probably want to hang with, just to relieve the stress of everyday life.

Don't change who you are, just recognize when you might be going to far and don't hurt others or yourself.  Enjoy being you!!

Answer 7

Dude! you're awesome! you're just living life and d**n well enjoying yourself. live it up you're only young once :)

And gratz on dental school!