Am I suffering from depression?

Question

(sorry for the poor formatting, it's the best I could do to fix the wall of text I typed up)

For many years now, I've suffered from whatever this is, but

every year as I move up, it gets worse. I feel somewhat pleased

(not particularly happy) in the summer, only because I can lock

myself in a room for nearly 3 months.

Once school starts, I enter this really awful depression. I get up in the morning,

feeling miserable, take a shower, get ready and leave for the

bus, I get on the bus and sit in my seat and do\say nothing.

Once at school I just walk straight to my class and sit there no

matter how early I am and repeat for next classes.

I don't care about social life or anything really. I just want the day to end so I can go home and take a long nap, eat, listen to a few

songs, and go to sleep and maybe hope the next day is better.

My mom is even noticing this, because I walk in my house after

school and my mom just looks at me and says "what's wrong?." I

don't tell her anything, but when I go to the bathroom and look

into the mirror, I can see why she asks me. I look miserable.

Another thing is I think my disability is contributing to this

(left arm has been paralyzed from birth.)

I honestly don't care about anything or anyone except my parents. Not even myself. I only stay in school so they can have something to be proud of (they both dropped out before graduation and went no farther in education); in other words, I don't do it for myself.

I'm always having thoughts about suicide but I have enough self control to not do it.

But I'm afraid one day I'll just feel so awful and give up\give in.

Would telling my parents and asking for help be the best thing to do?

Answer 1

definitely tell your parents. once you tell them and explain, they can perhaps get you a concealer and get your life back on track. it helps, trust me. i have a concealer and whenever i meet with her i feel so good. you might need medication but if so, its no big deal. everything will be ok with a little help, youll be ok. hang in there. =]

Answer 2

In my book that sounds like depression. You've gotten into this grove and you need to shake it, get out a little more, change you schedule. But other then that you should tell your parents about the depression and the suicide thoughts. I know it will be hard but just for safety I would.  

Answer 3

Please see a doctor as soon as possible, you need help, it just takes one bad day and it could be it.  If you have no means to get to a doctor; talk to one of your teachers, he or she could be able to help.

I've been there, I know how it feels; you have nothing to be ashamed of.

Depression can be treated, with the right medication you can live a normal  and happy life..

Answer 4

Im At where you are right now..

I've told my parents like 2 months ago , and its helped alot lately.

My parents we're divorced for 10 years now , my mom left my father for another rich guy so..

Right now all i do is sit in my room and cry , sleep , and just feel..

sad.

Justin , i've been to where your at , i've atemted suicide , police came, jumping out my window attempting to run from home.

But i'm still here , im still living , as a teen i know we're experiencing hard times. But you know what there is more life then you imagine , if you die right now you might never get to get married - etc.  I Called the Boystown number they can give you advice on how to tell your parents , or you can talk to me email me , because im where you are at right now , if you suicide you can't turn back , it might be one of your greatest regrets.

Answer 5

Yes, ask for help. There's no shame in it. :) Trust me, I know.

Answer 6

Sure!!!!!!! You should tell them right away, believe me. You are clearly suffering, it might be a depression. You say you don't care about yourself. That's a symptom of depression. There's a treatment for it. Do it for your parents. :) Here's a smile