I dunno why, ever since I've been hanging out with my friends alot I've been feeling sad, like my life is just falling apart. I care when people talk about me, I hate it when my friends see my small 3 bedroom town house with 3 other brothers, and I hate when my mom doesn't understand how I feel and starts shouting at me for my actions I do. Over exaggerating? No! Just yesterday I was putting water on my hair because I haven't showered And I was supposed to go out with my mom, she goes i the washroom and gets mad because I wet my hair, and told me a million times not to wet my hair because I could catch a cold. She tells me to do what ever I like, and I start going upstairs and says what's wrong with me and **** and screams so loud you can hear from outside. That's just one of the many examples she does **** about with me. I then feel sad, that she doesn't understand how a teenager thinks, and I tell myself just 4 more years until I leave her and this house. My dad is the opposite, very kind, and understands. I think my friends judge me by how poor I am and c**p and it makes me feel like I'm a joke to them, and then sometimes I'm sad for no reason at all!!(my friends neevr judge me though!) I sometimes feel unactractive because when I went to highschool first day, 2 girls looked at each other and smiled and stared at me, am I really that ugly. What do you think is wrong with me... Maybe it's the fact that I need a relationship(I'm a guy, my name is not chelsea and I'm a guy!!)
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