Am i depressed...? please answer..?

Question

I'm a 17 year old girl. Alot has been happening in my life in the last couple years. Well, i used to go to public school. but i missed to much (biggest mistake of my life) so i got sent to a school for bad kids. (this was when i was about 16) that school made my self esteem go even lower than it allready was.(the people there were weird. and i was always by myself and quiet.) then i moved and started at another school district for about 4 months and i HATED IT. so i started cyber school. but i got so far behind from all that that i now have to drop out. (unless i want to go on the computer everyday for hours untill im 20) I'm 17 and never even kissed a guy because i'm overly shy and always second guessing myself. I'm not ugly. I've lost all my friends from the school thing and im down to about three. they all live an hour away from me so i never get to see them. i think about killing myself pretty often..i feel like i'm going to unsuccessful at life and never find a husband of have kids. i hate my stepdad, and my mom at times because she lets him treat me like ****, not to mention shes sometimes physcotic. (not kidding) I'm starting my first job saturday as a waitress. and i am so scared. I'm SOOO shy. and now i'm going to be a waitress? i'm scared i'm going to mess up. =/ but like i said before, i'm not ugly and i look like any other teenage girl. I feel like when i grow up i'm either going to die, or become an alcoholic. and be alone for the rest of my life. guys have liked me before but my shyness has always ruined it..i hate it. am i depressed? what can i do to fix it? i used to be happy when i was 14-15. =/ but in the last couple years i have been so sad with my life. the reason i was happy before was because i actually went to school, and had friends and had fun constantly. I regret missing so much school more than anything.

please help. i don't know why i am so afraid of liking a guy alot, or kissing one. let alone other things. it's not normal. why am i like this!?

Answer 1

Its very rare that life will give you lemons AND make the lemonade for you. You have to remember that 99% of the time you will be making your own lemonade. And if you don't make your own lemonade, the lemon will go bad over time, right? Your life will be constantly changing and you will face new challenges everyday. Having low self esteem is basically saying, 'even though life gave me lemons, I am afraid that my lemonade won't turn out good' even though you have the same skill and the same lemons that everybody else has. You won't be unsuccessful at life. You need to stop listening to your thoughts and just go with the flow. Never second guess yourself. Make a decision and move on with your life. If its a bad decision (IE missing school) then you know that in the future not to do that again. I hope you take my advice as I was like you when I was a kid (not missing school, but I was shy), but I learned that people don't judge you as much as you think they do.  

Answer 2

You know, I am going through something similar.

I am a 17 year old guy who is also very shy and gets nervous around any stranger.

I don't like to be around other people because I am always paranoid that they are talking about me, thinking bad thoughts about me, and so on. I only have like 2 or 3 friends that I actually hang out with a few time a month. I usually spend most of my time in my room going online, watching movies, or playing video games because these things make me forget about my life and allow me to focus on other things.

You are probably having these problems because your are also paranoid that people don't like you or something similar. It is good you are getting that job because you will open up to people more and learn to interact socially.

Sorry I don't have too much info - I am trying to find the answer for myself also. Good luck with life.

Answer 3

You seem to lack confidence in yourself and you are afraid to take unnecessary chances so you just continue to be a wall flower. When you are in school you are unclear about something but decide not to ask about it in class, are you learning to be afraid of asking questions? Every time you want to talk to someone or go to a party but decide it would be more comfortable not to do it, are you increasing your shyness or your anxiety at the next party? This theory doesn't explain the origin of an irrational fear, only the growth.

So you need to begin to take some risks but start slow and you need to realize you have a lot of positive things going for you so list them and read them out-loud to yourself.  This will begin to enable you to concentrate in the positive instead of your PERCEIVED negatives.

Hope this helps.

Answer 4

First thing to do is to commit to not taking drugs including smoking, drinking or meds. Then just improve your mental health by doing things that help you become more relaxed, calm, tranquil and happy. If you do not work toward this then you automatically get pulled into unhappiness since we live in an unhappy world. See site below to learn how to be happy.

Also see page with advice for teen girls and the blog.

Answer 5

each day when you get up things will change life is always changing. It's not the end only the beginning. You can still go to school. get a GED and go on to collage. work it will be good for you . don't worry about boys they will come as well when the time is right don't be in a hurry life goes by to fast anyway.

Answer 6

just stay in school dont worry about friends right now your still young,im 18 and i can tell you things get better after you finish highschool

Answer 7

you are depressed take N/A classes or in other words neurotic anonynous

it helps you a lot

helped with my dad through depression and he still goes just so he wont fall for it again and other stuff

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