Am i going crazy? can someone give me some advice?

Question

About 2 months ago i was really deppressed and i didnt really care so i started experimenting with drugs like welbutrin, weed,salvia,sleeping pills,vikadin and other stuff. I took two welbutrin sr tablets and about a half an hour i had an intense anxiety attack with random muscle tightening and my heart beat was hella irregular. now i think im going crazy like on and off I think it might be flashbacks. like wierd stuff has just been happening for about a month now like seeing things moving around geeting depersonalization my pupils expanding and contracting for no apparent reason, social anxiety, and even mild hallucenations like things changing coulor and especially in the dark seeing wierd stuff and having mood swings. the wierd thing is that it can be like a nightmare one day and then i will feel normal for a couple of days. i feel really let down and bad and i feel wierd to talk about it cuz people will probably think im crazy. what should i do? Im not paranoid or delusional and i act pretty normal and i have friends and a girlfriend but this is starting to control my thoughts constantly and i dont know how to talk about it. Any comments are appreciated as long as theyre honest

Answer 1

First things first CALM DOWN! Thinking about it will only make you worry more. I don't know how long you have been clean of all these. Start off your morning by relaxing. Wake up about a half hour early and sit in bed or on the floor with your eyes closed with relaxing breaths. In six seconds, out six seconds. This will calm you down and keep you calm. Also, the brain is funny in the way that you thinking about the hallucinations and so forth can lead to your brain sending those messages to your eyes. While deep breathing in the morning think to yourself, "The drugs I USED to take are not effecting me as a person today." And if you do happen to have a relapse, calm down and think, "This is not happening now, I am getting through this fast." If it persists see your physician.

Answer 2

maybe because of what you said you're depressed and you're trying to forget that fact that something is wrong with you... but drugs??? i think its not gonna help you... drugs is not a solution but will make your life worse... you said you have your friends and your girlfriend... you dont wanna lose them right??? so yeah... think about what youre doing... coz one day... you might just wake up... and you dont have them anymore and all you have is drugs that doesnt even help you but just destroyed you... think about it... just think about positive stuff instead of taking drugs why not hang out with friends... pray to god... and think what will happened with your life if you continue this behaviour.... i know that its hard for you to stop the drugs coz you already started it... but get help.. and try to fix your self again.. pick up the missing pieces again... try this... i know you'll find it weird but try to listen to god words... and pray... just pray... it will help you...

Answer 3

Even though your ashamed to tell anyone.... There are always counselours!

Answer 4

the drugs and medication you took have affected your brain chemistry, hopefully only temporarily, but I would certainly say you should get it checked with the doctor or GP for your own well-being. Flashbacks are fairly common, and it's strange how taking some of these meds that are supposed to be helpful, like Wellbutrin, can actually make things so much worse, which is why we all need to h ave a psychiatrist or a psychologist to watch over us for any signs or symptoms of concern like what you are going through now.

I don't think you are going crazy, in my own opinion from my own experiences, I feel this is something you will get over, but please get medical advice from a professional as well.

You did have depression, or were suffering from a bout of depressive mood, so there's something going on there which will need some attention.

The main issue with you seems to be that you're having problems voicing your concerns, how to talk about what you're going through and feeling. The first step is to see a counsellor or talk to someone at Lifeline at 13 11 14. It's totally anonymous, a free call, you can just ring up and talk to someone and ask them some questions. Also check out http://www.lifeline.org.au  

Answer 5

To be perfectly honest, please dont take this to rudely, but your a moronic idiotic person. You have no reason to be depressed you have friends, a girlfriend, your life seems great, i dont know, but you dont say you have any diseases, you should be grateful, some people are so ungrateful to be alive, to live for nothing but self mutilation, through a life of extortion and drug use, i have been through more in my short 17 years on this planet then you will probably ( based on what you have told me ) in a life time, type 1 diabetes 15 years, nearly dieing 3 times from something i did nothing to get and had no reason in getting, im growing very slowly compared to others and have  had laser 5 times in my eyes and not depressed and your taking drugs !! Your hurting your body and your causing it, my life is going to be shortened for something i didnt do anything to do and your causing it yourself, stop taking drugs, some people are so ungrateful to be alive, to ignore all they have and take what they have in vain, think about what you have a girlfriend, friends, stop taking drugs, maybe all there occurrences will stop, Good Luck, you will need it, Again dont take this rudely, just to see someone say for there be depression and i see what they have, there is no reason, Good luck again