i am too sensitive to any sort of stimulation. a few weeks ago my dad and i went to new york city, i had a panic attack starting from the moment i stepped out onto the train platform up until we arrived in new york 8 hours later. the whole trip my stomach was in knots, i woke up feeling (but never being) ill every morning (no, i'm not pregnant) and could only eat a few bites a day. i am always having digestive problems which only adds to my problem.
here's an example of how bad this is: i was picking out a new phone for my upgrade in a few months and couldn't decide on which of the 4 colors i wanted. I WAS ACTUALLY GETTING DEPRESSED OVER IT!!! i cannot understand why i get such a severe reaction to the most miniscule things.
one thing that is a huge part of my background, i'm an emetophobe, meaning i freak out if i or anybody else is nauseas or actually sick. yet this problem disturbs me to the point of nausea on a regular basis, and i start having panic attacks because i'm neauseas. it gets to the point where i cannot go anywhere without tums, ginger capsules and/or peppermint tea to settle my stomach. sometimes i wake up suddenly in the middle of the night to nausea and a racing heart but it tends to go away after awhile.
i know that was long...but i have been suffering from this since i was 12 years old...and am almost 22 now. it's only getting worse...HELP ME BE NORMAL :( or at least let me know i'm not alone?
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