Am i going mad or just growing up.?

Question

Right here i go, i hope you give me some answers to this.

About a year ago i would say, i became very witdrawn to others like i wouldn't go out and socialize,and would always stay in my room do nothing, just listen to music because thats my only interest i have is music,and still a year on i still do the same, well i mean i do go out sometimes now but half of the time i go out mostly for counselling and seeing my phychiatrist which i only seen her once so for and a social worker twice so she can tell my pyhchiatrist what we have spoken about and that.this as only been going on for a month but ive been having counselling for about 4 months but i dont do that anymore.

And about 2 months ago i notice things more, like most of the time i would hear voices in my head which most of the time that would happen when im listening to music and just some random voice comes into my head.

and now for the last 2 weeks its come back but not when im listening to music, (im not sure if this is the right way to put it but its the only way i can describe it)its like the voice is controlling me in a way, always putting me down and saying things that i wouldnt even call myself.which this puts my self-esteem even more down that it already is.

Also with this, i keep seeing bugs all on my walls,i know for a fact that its just my mind playing tricks on me because as soon as open my eyes from closing them because i hate bugs, they are all gone and then 5 mins after all the bugs will come up again.

At first i thought it was funny but now its getting to the point where i've had enough,which i haven't cried in over a year and just the other day i was crying because i couldnt take no more of it.

Do you think i should tell my phychiatrist about this?

she already knows im depressed and she thinks im paraniod all the time, but i don't know why she thinks that i mean i think everyone gets paraniod every now and then lol.

well im still waiting for any dignoises yet from my phychiatrist but i just want to know what to think if they going to say no your just growing up or what, because i haven't told them about the voices or what i see.

Also one more thing lol

my mum is going to see my phychiatrist this friday,because they wanted her to come in to talk about me and when i was little.

and i know my mum she will just say its just growing up and make me look bad.

Answer 1

I agree with the others. you need to tell your phychiatrist . You need her ,and your mom to help you . don't worry ! But no one can help you, if you don't tell them. But first, are you on drugs? like acid ? If so, that is the reason for the voices and visions. If that is the case-STOP !

Answer 2

Last time I checked, psychotic tendencies were not a part of "just growing up." I'm not saying that your symptoms are absolutely going to warrant a diagnosis. What I can say is that these symptoms are obviously causing you distress, and, that should be enough for you to have to see a psychiatrist. So, tell your psychiatrist about everything that is bothering you. It could be the puzzle piece they are looking for when it comes to a diagnosis-- you may never know.

I can't imagine any self-respecting psychiatrist, psychologist or social worker telling you that this is just a part of growing up, and that you should just suck it up and deal with it. They see parents who are either in denial or don't understand, most of the time.

I was wondering, how old are you? Also, have you been going to school since this has started happening (I'm assuming you haven't because  you say you haven't left your room much)? If you haven't been able to, obviously, this has been impairing your functioning. The psychiatrist is not going to believe your mother when she says it's just you "growing up." She is just going to come across as non-compliant.

Don't worry. People will believe you. If they don't, it is time to find somebody who will. You are not alone. You are obviously in pain; you don't need anyone to trivialize the situation.

Send me an email if you need help/ someone to talk to.

Best,

Not a Prude.

Answer 3

You should look on the net and find information on schizophrenia.

I think that you are very brave and actually going to see your counsellor and also a psychiatrist is one huge step.  You have taken things this far -   now you need to be completely honest and open with them.

If you find that talking to them about these things is really hard - write down everything.  Write down what you are hearing and seeing and explain that you are worried about it and that you need people to understand.  Give it to your psychiatrist the next time you see them, just as you are leaving.  Tell them you have written down a few things for them to read so they can understand you better.

Perhaps if your mum knew the full story she would be more sympathetic.  Sometimes - when people are scared and they care for someone - they don't want to believe that they have a problem as they don't know how to cope.  Perhaps your mum won't see what is going on as she is too scared to face the truth.  The fact your mum is coming to this meeting shows that she cares and you should be grateful that she is making the effort.

Honestly - writing down what is going on in your head will help you make sense of it all.

Buy a hard back book that is for your thoughts only.  Trust me - it will help.  

Good luck with everthing.

Answer 4

Well, I think your not the only one, I also might be getting like that. Since I was little and in a random place at my home, I hear a random word come out, but then stop until years later, when I am not any socializing and in my room in a computer or just something, sometimes I go somewhere, but not all the time. And I get like someone is watching me, lots of deja vu, and hearing more noises that come out of nowhere.But are usually in random times. I am sometimes depressed most of my life, I don't know exactly why. But I'm not a phychiatrist but I think its mostly because the brain or your body wants to be socializing and not in a room a lot. I would like to go somewhere, but for some reasons of financial problems, I'm limited.

Answer 5

Look up schizophrenia......

Answer 6

What you are describing (the voices, bugs on your wall), all sound like possible symptoms of Schizophrenia. It is very important that you go and talk to your psychiatrist about this. She can give you medication that can stop you from experiencing that.