Am i too late, is something going to turn horribly wrong if i fall will i take it all?

Question

school for 2 years has been pressuring i am a changed person i am very quiet, placid and yet extremely violent went pushed too far. i don't care anymore either getting good marks is really all that matters i have no interest in a girl friend i walk past friends with a blank face, i openly lie to people who ask about my suspicious packages containing chemicals [with ease and somewhat skill..it sounds good and i am telling the lie] i use to make homemade explosives. i feel hateful to the people i past and talk to myself in my head freqently do they know i can kill them all? do you think it's too late to have faith/hope? and no sucide has not crossed my mind i just want to cause pain.

Answer 1

Professional help is the best course to take from here.  I, nor anyone else on here, can help answer the question that deep deep down, you are asking.

Answer 2

if girls can't help you out,pets can...my pets helped me out of a really rough patch earlier. or try doing a good deed every day, karma has its day..., or even think of something worse, like falling so deeply in love with a guy you know you can't get,cuz he's billions of miles apart......or knowing that you're the family's least favourite person....try it!

Answer 3

Are you d**k Chaney?

Answer 4

Well, obviously you know you have a problem. And Yahoo Answers is going to help. You need to see a professional... nobody on here can help you.