Ok so for my 16 birthday I went to an amusement park with two friends. we went on a whole bunch of rides and stuff, all the scary ones, but except for one. There was this huge thing where you go up like 100 feet in the air, and then drop you, and its like your flying. I was like heeeeellll no, and one of my friends ended up going on it. after wards I just felt like ****.... Should I have gone on it? Even though I would have been scared s h i t less. The thing is, ever since he went on that ride I've been feeling like ARRGGHH!! should I have gone on that ride or not?? Truth is, if he hadn't gone on it, I never would have been feeling this way, and it wouldn't have been bothering me, but for the past week its been eating me on the inside! Like right now I feel like I missed out on a big part of life for some reason. I don't know why. And every time I see a building i'm like, he jumped off that?! And I just have this whole sense that now he's so much greater than me. and he has a fear of heights too. Any way. What's frustrating me is that I can't get this whole "Should I have gone?? Or should I go?" thing out of my head! Like I do not want to go on this thing! I don't even know why I'm feeling this way! I don't think that hes better than me at all, but whenever I look up at a tall building or something I get this sense that he is. And even if i decided to go, which I wouldn't want to, the whole time in between i'd just be thinking about how scary it would be! Please treat this question seriously. I know It might kind sound of immature. And please don't give me any answers like "your about eight right?". I am really looking for some good advice. Thanks
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