I've had anxiety problems my entire life, but I always figured that they were just problems like everyone else had; I'm one of those people who doesn't like it when others make light of real problems and psychological disorders. My parents are conservative Asians, and I don't think they really believe in these things. I always thought that other people had the same problem, but now I kind of want to see how bad it might be for others.
I don't feel anxious all the time, or at least I don't think I am. I try to stay laid back, but I've fainted a few times. Even though I felt fine at the time, my doctor says it was because of my nerves. I've gotten tested, and there's nothing wrong with my brain or my body that was making me faint.
But sometimes, over small things (sometimes just useless details in things like books) or bad things that can't be avoided, I get so worked up... I can't concentrate, and I can't sleep. I'm pretty sure most of you have gotten that hollow feeling in your chest before; I like to call it a sense of impending doom. I worry about things. I can't stop thinking about them. But I like to think that about 60%, there's a good reason.
I also can't talk in front of or to people I don't know. I'm in my second year of college and I made a total of one friend my first year. My whole spring (second) semester, I stayed in my room most of the time. I was irritable and restless; I got angry at the smallest things, and I could never get up in the morning. I even skipped exams that couldn't be replaced. Nothing really felt important, and my GPA dropped from the first semester 3.7 to an average of 2.9.
Sometimes when I'm nervous or stressed out, I get bloated and cramped, I feel sick, and I get diarrhea. I've tried taking deep breaths, I've tried stress balls, and I've tried relaxation techniques. I don't think any of those are really working.
I feel fine most of the time. I just wonder if this might be serious.
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