An unundescended t******e and my love story:(?

Question

I have undescended t******e by birth. i have only one t******l.

As per i know when i am 10 years, i went through some operation. Some of my relatives talked like "i can’t get children". Some told i won’t be fit to marriage.

I know there comments @ that time i am 10 years

After operation, nobody told me anything. I found myself; i still have only one t******l. From that time i decided not to marry.

i never tried to talking to girl till 'i am 19 years.. I thought 'i am harmful to them'

When i am 19 years old, all of our college went to tour.. One girl followed me, keep calling me good boy/skeleton (i am lean:( ) etc...

5 days passed. She is most beautiful girl of our class.

I tried avoiding her, she still looking at me. She told me "you are most innocent and smart looking person and with good height". I never saw myself in such a +ve way till that time(i am alone, that was what i feel all the time).

She tried calling me(home land line phone), i avoided her. She felt 'i am more innocent than she thought i am'...

By this time everyone in class noticed huge change in me. She also noticed.

I never maintain good dress... but I started.

She is happy.

Exams, preparation holidays: I called her and told "sorry". She asked why? "i told sorry for disturbing". She laughed and replied "hmmmm ok". We had some talk, she told about her familly.

That night, i didn’t got sleep.. And i decided to not to talk with her any more.(I felt I am harmful to her)

A started avoiding her, she got anger.

I lost 4 papers in exams, all her anger changed to, may be love.(she know, i never lost subjects before).

we both have to work for same project. I made some politics and changed my project group. I am about to tell her the same(I am going out of project ). One of my friend xxxxx told 'he will tell her'. I replied ok.(i want completely move out of her life).

My friend xxxxx asked me, 'ask me if you need any help regarding her'. I told thanks, i told a lie to him 'i won’t talk with her till i finish education (i don’t know why i told this). I told Xxxxx about her family and how she talks. (i don’t know why i told these)

2 months later, i saw her on road...

She went to xxxxx(same project group), and told him "i saw Juvaj"

xxxxx replied "did he stopped you on road? Then why are you thinking of him?"

I meet xxxxx two days after this.. He told what happened when she saw me etc...

And also he told "i am playing with her like anything yar, i am always keep teasing her by calling 420”

He told me “he used to teas her, due to you only Juvaj lost subject, juvaj is good person. So xxxxx named her 420 etc….”

He also told “He is having full touches with her, now a day”.

I am 20 by that time.(5 months later)

I meet xxxxx , he reminded me “Juvaj, once you asked her for a movie and she laughed and left away, right? Few months back she asked me for a movie and x*x replied “why should I come with you, get lost.. you are a 420” “juvaj, I am teasing her like anything yar. Etc….

He tried to tell me, true love is false.. we have to play with girls etc…

I thought “any one is better than me for her and just went back to job search”

One day supplementary results came, x*x called me and asked for result”I got zero marks, nothing wrong with me.. something should be wrong with correction. How come I will get zero, when I answered many Questions?”

Xxxx replied, enjoy.

Xxxx in chatting told me “I scolded her for 1 hr, juvaj failed due to you”

First time, I asked him a Question “Did you told her, I(me) got zero, even though I have written good?”

No reply from him….

I have her mail password with me, I saw his mails to her… “In one of mail he told “just leave Juvaj for God seek, why are you worrying for him””

I don’t know what is this mail means? And don’t want to see her mails any more.

I thought of changing her password, and i changed her password.

He called me and blackmailed me to give password(I don’t know whatz wrong I did to him).

I replied; let her ask, I will give the password.

I mailed her password to one of her friend.

One day he came online and pinged me…

I asked him about his ex, what if she (his ex) might have loved you?

x*x replied, “she(his ex) is not like all girls”

I got anger, I simply copied all the chatting and mailed to her.

She called me and told, “you can become bad for things you want, that’s not good”

She switched of her phone then after…

I mailed her many times, no repliy

One day he called and told me”I(xxxx) told her Juvaj, edited chatting, just a word she scolded you, hehehehe”

Later I came to know; he created screens (yahoo archive chat windows) in mspaint and mailed her.

He changed whole chat content.

27th Feb 2008, I went to s***n test (I saw about that in internet). Dr told, I have sperm count of 80 million. I am perfect for having kids….

I am 24 years now (4 years passed).

She still don’t know anything…

I still love her.

Is this is what life?

Answer 1

tell her every thing

Answer 2

first go to a doc and get yourself clear.then tell her everything abt u.no secrets,then wait for the answers fro her

Answer 3

this much big story, no one can understand except some experts.

Some Relationship experts should come and decode this story :)

Answer 4

hey man common dont worry if u truly love her then take ur mother and go to her house or else make ur mother call her and talk to her explain her ur problem which u were having formerly then things will come in ur favour becoz a mother can explain better about her son and one thing a lady can understand another lady better so do the same if it possible send both of ur parents to her parents then ur love will suceed all the best in ur life cheer up man

Answer 5

you talk like a bloody caveman learn proper english and then maybe ill read the full story.