Anxiety, suicide, and no privacy. ?

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So, I am 17 years old and I live with my mother and my step dad, who has been around since I was very young. I have a half sister who is 12. I feel like I am treated not as an equal by my step dad because I am not his real daughter. So, while I was at my aunts, my friend James ( a guy) called me on my cell. It's our inside joke to be mean and kid around with one another. My cousin then wanted to talk to him, so I used his home phone to call James. Then, James called back later in the day to talk to both me and my cousin... so, my aunt ended up telling my parents, and of course my step dad is flipping a *****. What do I do? I am 17 years old, should I not be able to talk to whom I want with my own cell phone? I feel like he is controlling my life to an extreme. I need independence. What do I do in this situation?

Also, because of the strain and stress my step dad causes me, along with other stresses and an absent father, I have contemplated suicide and I have cut my wrist hundreds of times- LITERALLY. So... I am emotionally worn out and about ready to give up fighting for him and mine's relationship. I get great grades, I'm an AP student, I don't do drugs, not having risky s*x... and I go to church regularly. I am at a loss and really need some help calming myself down and finding an effective solution. Detailed answers please.

Answer 1

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Answer 2

Teenagers have a hard life. I had some similar feelings, I had a lot of issues. Just live though it. Try to talk to your step dad, (unless you can't). Otherwise, talk to your mom. Vent your frustrations to your friends. Don't hold your frustrations in, But Don't commit suicide. Even stop thinking about it. Phisiologically, You can't smile and feel sad at the same time. (attitude has a lot to do with personal happiness--making the best out of whatever life throws at you). Try hard to mentally adjust your outlook on life. Don't give up. (Life is hard for everyone, sometimes--but it always gets better in the end. Life doesn't seem hard for some people, but they have their issues too! Suicide is a permenent fix for a TEMPORARY problem. Living Life is SO MUCH MORE WORTH it! Suicide is not worth it at all!!! Talk to someone whom you can trust!!! Plus, DON'T Try Drugs. They make problems so much Worse, They make things seem ok for a very short time, but everything gets so much worse afterwards.

Answer 3

About your step-dad, if you feel he cannot respect you as an equal, why are you giving him your respect? s***w him. Don't let your frustrations with others harm you. Try smoking marijuana. It is harmless and very good at relieving stress.  

Answer 4

Don't do anything to hurt yourself.

Please take this into consideration. It worked for me, although I am not you.

I had overwhelming anxiety. It turned out to be a chemical they put in food called sucralose. And it is in a lot of stuff. From fitness water to tomato sauce.

Sucralose is what Splenda is. Sadly, the package doesn't have to say Splenda or diet to have sucralose in it. You have to read labels.



Sucralose is poison. It ruined five years of my life. I had a laundry list of medical problems while taking it, including overwhelming anxiety, depression, mood swings, insomnia, gastrointestinal issues and more.

Go ahead, google: anxiety splenda or anxiety sucralose or insomnia splenda or insomnia sucralose



The slogan, "Made from sugar..." is very misleading. Splenda might be made from sugar, but it is far from sugar. The resulting chemical is an organochloride (chlorocarbon). Organochlorides are typically poisons.



carbon monoxide - made from oxygen so its like a breath of fresh air

Answer 5

You are going through your teenage years like teens do.  In ten years you will laugh at these things that seemed so stressful - trust me.  There is no sense in hurting yourself, life is full of roller-coasters, good and bad...try writing in a journal ...it'll be interesting a few years from now ..you'll read it..and see how much you've grown.  

As for the independence and privacy - go apply for a job, something you enjoy doing...stay in school..and before you know it...you'll have grown-up things to deal with.     You'll know what I mean when you get there.  

STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY!