ok so last night i was talking to my boyfriend and he said something that really upset me, and i got really angry, and i sometimes do this thing were if i get to much of a emotion or emotions i like go parlazied, i can hear whats going on around me but i feel as if i can't move or speak. Well i did this last night after i got so mad, i was just full of more anger then i new i could hold and i just could not respond, then i felt as i had to get up, walk around, do something. Like i was escaping the issue or avoiding or something, im not sure. I walked passed the kicken then fell between the dining room and living room, then i just felt like the most extreme anxiety attack i ever felt. I just laid there, like half there and half passed out. i could not respond to my bf on the phone. he was trying to get me to talk. but i could not respond but could here him. Then i just started saying i need to call mom, i need mom, mom or calling for my brother for help. I just felt this undiscrible feeling. Then as if i was in a protection shield i built i felt like i was like ok im ok now, i can come out of this and i snaped out of it breathing a little havey and no clue what just happened. A little more happened but thats about it. And then the last few nights, like tonight i feel this hestric feeling. LIke just crazy feeling. I have bipolar and i have been takeing my meds, i also have anxiety disorder and been taking anxiety meds when i feel this happen to me. anyone have any idea what this could be?? Please i need advice...it scared the h**l out of me. is it just really exstream anxity attacks? I not depressed, i have been stressed from work and i been waiting to see my boyfriend , i get to go visit him soon. its long distance so i been really excited about that. just so info to all this...any ideas??
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