Any ideas on how to safe guard or prevent this worrying thought ?

Question

present situation :

i live in a one bedroom flat in the north of england , on disability benefits, i own nothing except an old computer - got no carpets on my floor, a shabby bed etc. i suffer with borderline personality disorder and post traumatic stress - im waiting to hear if i will get group therapy ; my main problems are severe low self worth , rage and aggression and aggraphobia and anxiety, i have social problems forming friendships or relationships with people.

about my history :

ive had a severe hard life, suffered severe abuse, bullying , victimisation, bad times , assaults , head injuries , homelessness , time in a psychiatric hospital , over a time span 0f 16 years , since the age of 16.

ive missed out on most things in life people take for granted : forming any relationships with anyone . never been employed , spent all my life on disability , never got an education , never got any qualifications.

have a minor criminal record for an assault and carrying a knife when i lived in a rough neiborhood, and i was being targeted by local thugs.

obviously have a psychiatric record to.

i also unfortunatly havent had consistant therapy over the years, the system failed me so i havent had the help i needed.

the time is coming where i will have to travel out to group therapy which is quite far from me , i will have to have to travel out everyday to it when it starts, - so i will be away from my apartment all day.

i dont own much as ive already said, except an old, dusty computer , which is my prize possession - to me its a connection a lifeline to the outside world.

i dont live in the roughest area , plus i live on the 3rd floor, all my neighbours seem ok , but i have this reoccuring fear of what if while im out , away from my apartment , that im BURGLED and my computer stolen ?

this worry is freaking me out and if it happened, i feel it would tip me over the edge into suicide .

the thought of losing everything on my computer, my contacts, important info , notepads with important things written in them, all my pictures and videos , friends emails , contacts, messenger addresses , etc etc , and everything else.

and now its getting to the stage where ill be leaving my apartment regularly and all day, im worrying more.

my computers is everything , a lifeline to the outside world in everyway and its freaking me out , what if it was stolen ?

like i said i dont live in a rough area but theres still louts around, and once again if this was to happen and my computer taken from me , i would surely end it.

i couldnt handle losing everything, all that important stuff.

my question is : does anyone know of anything i could do to safe guard this happening ?

a clever way to back everything up ? any gadgets i could buy to clone everything on my computer so i could take it with me where i travel ?

so all id have to do is transfer everything to another computer ?

any other clever procedures ? so in the unfortunate situation i was burgled id have all my info backed up somewhere else ?

btw i dont own any laptops, im poor on disability , but i do own an external harddrive , is there anything i could do with that ?

Answer 1

life is for living and learning.  Whats 'severely hard' for one person may be a breeze for another.  The trick is to learn from it and move on.  If you always look back then you head for another crash.

If you fear something happening, put safe guards in place to limit the chance then move on in the knowledge that you've done what you can.

We've all had hard times but its up to your attitude of mind as to how you want to deal with them.

Free yourself by letting go of the past and look forward to the future

Answer 2

For yourself and the sake of others seek treatment and stay medicated on a consistent bases

Answer 3

serge the ℓoƝε cavalier, at the very least, backup C:\Documents and Settings\YourAccountNameHere to put you more at ease. Consider backing up specific program files also. Once you do it enough, you might figure out much quicker ways to do it all. Either way, you can backup either to your external hard drive, to an online storage place like www.adrive.com, or both.

There's nothing wrong with backing up your data. I'd go insane if my PC went missing along with its data so I back up many things. You should do the same.

Answer 4

That was the longest question ever.

Try lightening up.

Answer 5

I'm not technical so I can't help you with that side of it but I reckon you'll be alright as there is a VERY VERY low chance of your apartment getting broken into. It's just a thought that is playing on your mind but I don't think you need to worry.

On another note you might be able to complain to the council or landlord if you feel the locks are inadequate and pose a risk to your safety. Worth a try ..