This may be a bit long, but please hear me out, I'm thinking about ending my life over this (it may seem stupid but 'not knowing' is driving me insane)
I'd like you guys to help me do the impossible and aid me in finding out what this problem is. It started on June 6th, 3 months ago. I went on a drinking binge and had 3 hard drinking sessions, one at night, one the next morning, then the next night I tried gin for the first time.
After drinking about half a bottle of gin, I got short of breath, so I stopped (keep in mind I've drank more alcohol than this, so likely a reaction w/ the gin). I wokeup the next day, still short of breath and with a cough sensation near my trachea, like a constant tickle.
Since that day I've been from doctor to doctor. I've had an EKG, lung workup, Chest X-Ray, blood tests, an barium swallow test, an endoscopy, a laryngoscopy, a naturopathic assessment, acupuncture, and homeopathic treatment,
Everything came up negative, and the alternative medicine is giving me ideas but they aren't curing me.
Let me make it clear that, no, I do not have the new fallacious title of "GERD", that is a condition created by the pharmaceutical company that basically means "acid indigestion". I was thoroughly tested for it as I tried Aciphex, Zegerid, Protonix, Zantac, Pepcid AC, Prilosec, and tons of OTC and home remedies for "heartburn", but what I have is not heartburn, as it was unresponsive to all of these things. Also, the endoscopy showed no inflammation or irritation, and the laryngoscopy showed nothing as well.
The symptoms are an extremely intense throat tickle that is persistent throughout the day, regardless of what I eat, when I eat, or how I eat. It does not hurt to swallow at all. Often times the cough will subside and turn into a heat that goes around the neck, even to the back of the neck and shoulders that spreads to my arm at times.
At this point, my doctors are pinning it on psychological factors, however, I have no history of having psychological symptoms. This just happened overnight, and I'm open to the idea that I may be "manifesting my own symptoms", but I feel that it is physical.
I've became severely depressed, feel like my life is ruined, and get nostalgic for when I didn't have to deal with this. I feel like a completely different person because my well-being has been torn away by this mysterious intense tickle/burning that never ceases and has no explanation whatsoever aside from "gin" possibly bringing it on.
I have tried the spiritual route, people telling me that I have to "let something out" or "accept it", that's BS, I tried that and it didn't work. I changed my diet, stopped drinking, etc. it's still here.
The only 2 other things that my doctor(s) can think of is a thyroid problem or allergies. I've never had allergies to anything ever, and the mostlikely possible allergy would be the birds in my house that aren't mine (staying temporarily, been here for 6 years).
I'd like any help I could possibly get, I am losing my mind. My doctor (who is a very good doctor and an expensive one) has basically told me she's seen cancer patients with less mysterious/odd symptoms and that my problem was beyond her expertise and likely psychological.
It's stopping me from functioning, I had to leave college for the day twice because I got so anxious/nostalgic and didn't feel like myself. I even got scammed by a fake naturopath until I found a real one, that's how desperate I am.
I 'd really like some advice...thanks.
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