Anyone know what the h**l is wrong with me? ?

Question

I've done a little research and was told to make a diary of my symptoms so I'm just gonna cut/paste it here (sorry if its long or doesnt make sense/typos, etc but they're just my notes):

Thursday, Aug. 21st, approx 5pm.

i was in the shower and felt disoriented. i was aware of being dizzy and lightheaded but just closed my eyes and thought it was gonna pass. until i opened my eyes then i realized that i had just kind of, blacked out.

not sure how long it lasted and i wasn't even able to shower properly bcuz i felt like something was gonna happen somewhere, some how to some one or something.

once my hunnie got home, i lost control of my emotions and immediately started crying. i didnt know what was happening to me but after about an hour or what seemed like, it seemed to subside little by little.

Friday night (8/22) i was ok most of the day until about 8pm when i went into the bedroom to get a blanket and all of a sudden, i became dizzy, lightheaded and again, disoriented, like i didnt know where i was or i felt that i was physically spinning. i even may have been, i'm not sure. i started crying again. after a few minutes of craziness, i tried to relax and just sit.

when i was sitting on the lounging couch, i felt like the room was closing in on me. everything was just starting to surround me but i KNEW it wasn't the reality of it but my eyes and brain weren't communicating properly bcuz it felt so overwhelming and suffocating and dark and scary.

this (one) seemed to last longer than the last one even though i'm not really sure how long each one lasted in reality. i think since this one started later in the evening, i thought i could try to make myself fall asleep even though i did feel extremely tired and drained.

i feel like these "things" whatever "They" are, come and go. today is saturday and last night i had a thing and i went to sleep with it and woke up all night long with it still fresh in my thoughts.

i feel scared or anxious cuz i dont want it to happen again. it's sooooo scary and i'm scared of it.

when "it" happens, i feel all these things without being able to think straight and get myself together or under control.

-i can't breathe properly. whether its in my mind or not, i can't.

-i cry silently and out loud.

-i can't control either or what makes me cry.

-confusion, lost. what am i doing? what was i doing? what SHOULD i be doing?

-my body shakes. i dont know how long but one point, i was sitting on the couch and felt myself shaking and attempted to stop it. i couldn't.

-my body feels like it's not mine. i feel like my hands aren't mine, cuz they feel numb and jumpy and like they're just detached from me somehow.

-i feel like i'm looking at myself from the outside and i can't control it.

-i've felt nauseaus and dizzy at the same time and one right after the other

-i physically feel that my head is a black (cement)block of dark blackness and it's just so heavy.

-friday i heard MY own voices in my head - thinking so loud, it scared me. not ever thinking about hurting myself or anyone but just any and everything i was thinking, was loud *in my head*

-i have constant feeling of stomach-butterflies or uneasiness. like that feeling in your "gut" when something is telling you something. i have that kind of feeling -nonstop.

-i'm feeling like every few breaths have to be deep ones - just to catch my breath good. (?)

i know me and my body and this thing that happens is NOT me and i dont' know how to stop it when it happens or stop it FROM happening again.

Answer 1

Panic attacks from anxiety is what it sounds like. I had the same problems your describing. It feels like death, then you adjust to it and classify it as a panic attack. Maybe go to the emergency room next time you feel like this. They can give you some anxiety medication (for panic attacks its usually just some sedatives) after the visit. I did that then saw a psych. because they take so long n i couldnt keep waiting. Good luck, im sure youll be fine. Benedryl in the mean time could help clear your mind of anxiety because its good for sedating purposes.  

Answer 2

I'm no doctor.  The things that popped into my head were panic attacks/anxiety disorder, low blood pressure or blood sugar (dizziness) or even MS (sensitivity to heat).  Good luck!

Answer 3

i wood talk to a dr personally

Answer 4

This sounds like an excellent description of neurological dysfunction and possible seizure activity.

You would be wise to consult with a neurologist right away.

~M~

Answer 5

anxiety attacks? see a psychiatrist!

Answer 6

It's scary what you're going through. I was going to say that maybe you were just having panic attacks. But as I read on, I don't think that's it is. Best thing for you would be to see your doctor and maybe he can refer you to someone that deals with this sort of situations. Just my opinion. Good luck to you.

Answer 7

It does sound like panic attacks. And I believe you should definately go to an ER the next time this happens.....and just take it from there.....Lots of factors can be playing into this - if you go to the ER they can rule out Neuro symptoms instead of waiting for your family doctor to send you somewhere... If it's siezures you usually wont have memory of what actually happened....so I don't think so....Good luck sweetheart - I have anxiety too, mild but it's very real. Go see a doc asap!

Answer 8

I've had both anxiety and petit mal epilepsy, so I can try to guess what the symptoms could be:

Can't breathe properly - Panic attack

Crying - Panic attack

Confusion - Possibly a neurological problem

Shaking - A number of causes. I shake when I'm having a panic attack.

Body/hands detached - I've got that! I'd put it down to 'depersonalization', which is a symptom of severe anxiety.

The same goes for the next symptom.

Nauseous and dizziness - Anxiety

Blackness - Again, possibly something neurological.

Racing, intrusive thoughts - O.C.D. and anxiety

Butterflies - Anxiety

Breathing - I've had that too. It's anxiety.

If I were you I'd see a GP who could refer you to a neurologist and if nothing is wrong there, ask to see a psychologist to be treated for an anxiety disorder. It's horrible and terrifying, but it's not permanent.

Another question, do you feel like something bad is going to happen? That is a major symptom of anxiety.