Anywhere i go it seems like i bring...?

Question

Anywhere I go it seems like i bring trouble, the reason i feel like this is because wherever i go it seems like everything was fine and then here i come and its a problem....i also feel as though i am a victim of this...becuase my mom has expressed that she knows what im experiencing and it feels to me like im fighting my mommas demons..ya know...it doesnt fail ...i can go some where sit in the back row of the room never talk to anyone there and there will soon be a problem? what in the world is that and how can i get rid of it...i dont talk to my mom much at all...try not speak that much cause im bitter about my past and how wrong she did me ...i have forgiven her but i feel its best i stay away from her because her kind of love hurts so...what advice do you have for me?

Answer 1

I think you are projecting your problems onto the people you are around.  Honestly if you are sitting, not talking, not doing anything, the problem that was caused probably had nothing to do with you.  Because of your mom and the life you had, you automatically assume it was your fault b/c you were there.  Just live, let what your mom did go as far as it's the way it affects you.  Look at your mom and tell your self everyday "That's not me and I'm not going to be that way"  When you see yourself acting like her or thinking like her pull back and tell yourself that again.  It will be a struggle, but it will get easier if you keep telling yourself that.