I was diagnosted in 2006 with bipolar type 2. ( I suffer more from deppression than mania...and my manias aren't extreme, they are hypomanias...)
Doctors have tried SO MANY medication on me, I feel like a lab rat!
Either the meds made no improvement on me, or the side effects were to strong/or dangerous for me to continue them.
I've been on Epival (valporic acid) since january and I also take clonazepam before bed for my anxiety.
Things were looking good, then about a month ago, it's like my meds stopped working!?
I'm affraid of trying a new combination of meds (cause some have made me suicidal and violent) and I'm to a point where I'm wondering: Will the doctors ever find meds to help me??What if they can't!?
Most medication make me feel "drugged up" and I can't stay awake!
I can't afford to live this way cause I'm a single mom.( I can assure you all that I never harmed my child...my parents are involved daily in our lives and can attest to that...and my anger and violence is towards me...)
I am unable to work because of my bipolar (plus I have physical probelms such as endometriosis, polycystic ovarian disease and chronic lower back pain...) * And I'm only 31 yrs old!! :S *
Everytime I feel like I've finaly found a solution to help me live with my illeness,it fades away...
I do my part by going to theraphy regularly... and I voluntarely went to two 7 weeks outpatient informational classes (to help me understand and live with my disease...)
I've identified my triggers, I've learned how to do mindfullness (to relax)...but it always seems like for every step I make forward, I'm pushed ten steps back!!
Latelly, I noticed that my bipolar was worst when my "female hormones" were shifting (like in my ovulation, my PMS and my messes)
Is there anyone out there that lived/or is living something similar to me?! And if so, how do you keep sane?! How did you get better??Is it normal to have meds work for a while and then stop helping out!?
I know I'm asking alot but, PLEASE HELP!!
BTW: I'm unable to take "the pill" to stabilize my hormones...I react badly to those meds too!!
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