Are these disorders or something and is it bad that I want them.NOTE:I really do this stuff.Not kidding.?

Question

I was wondering if I have some disorders.

I have intrusive thoughts uncontrollably.

I hate the fact on contamination.

I'm afraid of catching a disease by touching a door handle.

I do things repetitively.

I count things.

I'm afraid of certain things such as heights,being alone,.....

I'm pull my hair.

I pick the skin off of my lip.

I afraid of germs ad diseases.Mostly illnesses.

I'm afraid that someone is after me sometimes.

I get scared easily.

I pick scabs.

I broke my mom's glass table because she was out and we were talking on the phone and she hung up on me while I was trying to tell her that I wanted a milkshake.

I get really mad easily.

I get butterflies in my stomach for no reason.

I pray for every little bad thought that I have in my head.

I like being alone.

I am really sensitive.

I am sometimes really depressed over nothing.

I get depressed over thins that haven't even happened yet.

I cry over things that haven't happened yet.

When I take a bath,I continually keep washing my skin.

I also keep putting soap on the pouffe again and again.

I have certain numbers that I don't like.

I believe in bad and good numbers as well as good and bad letters.

I used to cut myself.

I count how many words I put in a sentance,I count how many times I've did something.

I also get stressed too.

I also put myself down a lot.

I think that I am fat even though everyone else says that I am skinny.

I get mad over stupid things sometimes.

I can't stop thinking bad thoughts.

I also stay up really late or used to a week ago.

Some nights,I wouldn't even go to sleep.

I got my schedule back on track but during the summer,I stay up at least until 5:00 a.m or all night.Around those times.

What I mean is that I like being alone at which means that I like to stay to myself but I don't like being at home alone or anything.

What is all of this?

I am really smart though.

I'm not making this up!You guys are being mean.I really do this stuff.I'm not sure why.But I need to know if I should see someone about it.

I'm being very serious here!This is not a joke or else I wouldn't have posted it.No rude answers.Please answer my question with respect and honesty.Thank you!

I guess do want OCD or something because it makes me different but I feel like I'm crazy for doing all of these things which makes me feel bad and stuff.Is it bad that I want this stuff?

Even though I want this stuff,I literally do this stuff too.I'm not joking.I've observed myself enough and I feel crazy for doing them.Please help.Any advice is good.What is all of this?OCD?Depression?Insomnia?Anger management?Anxiety?Phobias?Self Injury?Autism?What is it?I really do this stuff and it's really embarrassing out in public.Thanks in advance.

Answer 1

Yeah, you need professional help, not Yahoo. I see OCD in there for sure. There's anger issues and depression and well, you're a mess. I started very young spelling words in my head then taking the letters of the word and placing them mentally over something in the room, but they had to be symmetricall, like obs ess ive. See, that fits. It's a form of OCD. I would turn around and now I have to turn back around the other way to balance it out, don't want to be off balance you know. This was all very early in my childhood, don't know what started it, but I rarely do any of it anymore. I told a girl at work and she blurted out real excitedly,"Me too, I spell whole sentences." Ok, so I'm not the only nut case in the room. A lot of what you mentioned you can stop on your own, like staying up all night, just go to bed and sleep. You CAN stop thinking bad thoughts, just replace it with good thoughts.  What's embarrassing in public?  You should go see a doctor, really.

Answer 2

WHY are you asking this question on yahoo answers? see a professional, or you are going to spend your life behind bars. i hope you don't live near me.