I think that I have been depressed for quite some time now. I have a lot of odd symptoms but I'm not sure if they could be from being depressed. For starters I haven't been to willing to tell anyone about depression because my family (particularly my mother) does not believe in depression and I come from a wealthy family and they might think I have no reason to be depressed. I have trouble sleeping at night, I stay up till 1am or later....I toss and turn in bed and just give up and go on the computer or watch TV.....when I finally fall asleep I can't wake up till about noon although I make myself get up earlier so I don't feel like I've slept the day away. When I do wakeup and start my day I feel alright but then I just get tired and all I want to do is grab a blanket and watch a movie. I Love cold dark dreary weather....I like my room to be dark and my living room, I just like candle light.....of course if a light has to go on in the evening I will tolerate it. I also Love sad music, and romantic.....I like my fair share of fast, upbeat music but I usually go for the sad ballad type....as for weather- I hate summer because of the heat.I Love cloudy, breezy Autumn days and Winter.
Also I have moments where I'm extremely sad then super happy. Most of the time I just feel OK......not happy or sad, kind of in between. I'm 19 years old and would like a part time small job but my feelings get in the way and can't seem to focus at jobs I have tried. These sad, strange feelings get in the way of me finding a job..I don't look sad and emotional physically, people know me for my smile and how outgoing I am ..............are these symptoms of depression? how does a doctor diagnose depression?
I would really appreciate answers......thank you :)
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