Ok, so here's my situation.
Last night, I was chilling with some of my friends and we decided to blaze. I wasn't aware of this, but my buddy decided to use a bong, and being my first time with a bong.. I took about the normal amount of hits, maybe a tad more (thinking it wasn't going to do a thing to me).
So, as we were blazing, I suddenly started feeling like I was getting dizzy and really, the only way to explain it is, I felt like I was on a rollarcoaster and I was going up and down. My stomach was turning and I felt very dizzy. I realize this was definitely my limit and proceeded inside, it really did not take me long to realize I was unable to walk probably and I felt like I was going to fall over. I knew I needed to lie down, so I went downstairs to find my only non-high friend to relax with her, when boom... the bad buzz hit me.
I went downstairs and my words were slirred, and I definitely felt very very worried for myself. I quickly became paranoid and worried. My heart was racing uncontrollably, to the point where I felt like it was going to explode in my chest. But that wasn't the most worrying part to me, it was my state of mind I was in. I couldn't stop thinking bad things, like I was crazy, like I was very out of control and that I didn't like it. I remember most of all, being unable to shake the feeling like this feeling was never, ever going to go away. So, I forced myself to sleep after relaxing my body (which was amazingly hard to do).
So, now it's next morning, I feel fine.. but I'm still dizzy, I am very shaken up and wondering, what happened to me? I've looked around, and some scenarios seem very close to mine... but still I'm wondering, why me? My friends did not react this way to the weed.
The only conclusions I have come up with are;
1. I have always been very scared of my friends house ( I know, silly lol ) and maybe, it wasn't the best idea to run to her basement when I felt that way. It probably just made things worse.
2. I have bad anxiety, and I guess the weed heightened that and put my mind into overdrive.
All I could do this morning was cry, and try and shake off the feeling. For those of you who've experienced this, you know how scary it is to feel like you've lost control.. and most importantly, to feel like you are never going to gain that control back. Any advice, answers.. really anything, would help me.
PS, I don't think the weed was laced.
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