Based on these details, am I insane? I think so.?

Question

Okay, I've just been experiencing hallucinations at night lately. I've always had a fear that someone would break in my house and stab me to death, thus I always make sure my door is locked. In the 8th grade I constructed a hate list out of notebook paper that almost went to 6000 entries with very little repeats. My little brother walked through my dark room while I was asleep that scared the **** out of me, from then on I've been having actual illusions that someone is really there stabbing me, so I leave the light on. My time clock all summer has been falling asleep at 11 and getting up at 1 or 2, and getting to sleep at 4 just to wake up early and take naps. Sometimes I believe I'm a country music superstar who has seven albums, and my music comes on the radio, and I could actually give a list of the songs I sing. I also believe I'm the star character of an animated program that runs on Adult Swim, which no such program really exists. I also have a dillusion that my head is a radio and I can listen to music on this weird radio station that only exists inside my brain. I was diagnosed "mildly" autistic at age three and have symptoms of Asperger syndrome, such as withdrawl from family members and inability to make much friends. I have one best friend right now who controls me, telling me what to do when we see eachother and once even forced me to sexual exploration. And if one negative thing happens, like I'm not allowed to come to his house, or someone insults me, I take it to heart and get all upset and moody. My peers at school remark me for being the weird kid because I act differently than anyone else. Also, I can't think very clearly in my head and seem to get alone in my room or on my bike and make my thoughts completely verbal, thus talking to myself just to get things straightened out. And sprinkled onto it all I sometimes have thoughts of dying, from suicide and a car wreck, and wandered if surviving a life-threatening experience would make people appreciate me more. I'm sorry for the rediculous lenght of this question, because there's a lot of details to this. Answers can be sensitive and kind or obscene and offensive, it really doesn't make a difference to me. Am I insane?

Answer 1

you need to see a psychologist.

The answers or cures you seek sound like it will take a lot of counseling.. no quick way out of this one  

Answer 2

Sounds like you had a bummer of a life so far, too many problems - too many worries - Best not to worry as it wont change a thing, as for your sanity,it sounds like you've made your own mind up you are.

I personally think from what you say, you would be best seeking professional advice, let them decide.

My advice, Pray about it, give all your troubles to God and Leave them with Him

Answer 3

no you are not insane, however i do believe that you need some sort of help.  It seems that you are very scared at night and have an *** of a friend.  Please talk to your parents or some one that you trust about your terrible visions and your irrational thoughts so they can help you find some one.  If you do not want to talk to them, go to your family docotr and they can help you find someone to talk to.

Answer 4

Because you understand that something is wrong with you, you aren't completely insane. Go to a psychologist or psychiatrist if it really concerns you.

Answer 5

Insane is an unkind word for those who suffer from delusions beyond their control.  Good thing is there is help.  

Do not suffer in silence, go to your family, if they cannot help you then go on your own to a Psychologist and get some help.

He or she can assist you if finding the right medicine to help with the delusions and lead you towards reforming who you are.

Do you have a trusted clergy member you can talk to?  Odds are he or she will not be shocked and can help you with the spiritual dimensions of the problem.

Answer 6

if you know your going crazy,you must not be insane!