Been a cutter for 8 years?

Question

Is this real enough for you, cuts beneath my skin...

now and than i thought it was you who stopped everything.

But now to come to find out your the thing that makes the inside

of me scream out.

I want to cry but I dont know why I just need to identify

myself instead of die.

Dont you go, dont you go I want to fugure out how low I can go.

Satan you devil stay away from me. I can feel your fire building

up to me. Why..Why do i have to know whenever someone lets

me go. To fall off a bridge and still live tomarrow, why cant i die

why do you spi please dont leave I need you in my life and to find

out that im in love with the knife. guilt and shame overly dramatic

Not a game. if i was lying i would no be here trying to fix it. When

do i ever get help i do not know...

As soon as my family gets help with me.

Now i see my life has been everything

I-DO-NOT-TRUST!

What do you think of my poem?

It's my inner deep feelings from a long time ago....

I used to cut myself but i went to treatment and im

still trying to get thru all of this...i havnt cut in a week so thats a start...

Dont you think writing is good therapy

Answer 1

Sure writing is good therapy, but try writing poems about nature or animals, or something you like. I think when you write about stuff like in your poem, it makes you feel the same way you did when you cut.  

Answer 2

keep writing. don't stop.  it's for you more than anyone else, even though i thought it was very powerful.

keep writing     don't stop

Answer 3

That was good, very 'real', if you know what i mean, ive been a cutter for a long time too, but stopped 2 months ago, i find writing a very good form of therapy...

Answer 4

Honestly, your poem does nothing for me.

Here, have this one by Diana Bishop.

I Open My Windows and What do I See?

More Windows Waiting for Me.

I Open and Close

With the Click of My Mouse

And Watch the Whole World

From Inside My House

Explore Windows and ME

Truth be told, I am glad you are writing. It is a creative task, rather than a destructive one. Seeing as your only questions seem to be "How did you like my poem?" and "Don't you think writing is good therapy?" I'm reading this more as a cry for help and support.

Remember, there is no reason to cut on yourself, punishment, release or otherwise. It simply serves no purpose. I suggest masturbation. Honestly! It is much more widely accepted, equally physical, it releases endorphins... it is generally better.

So a bit of unrequested advice: If you get the urge, you might try to find some other form of release.