I've been having a tough time the last 4 months. I had a half-way decent job in retail management in Winston-Salem, NC but my girlfriend convinced me to leave with her to Plymouth, NC which is about 3 1/2 hours from Winston-Salem. Once arriving there in February of this year, it took me a month to find a job as an assistant manager at a pharmacy. We went there so she could be closer to her mother----other than that I had no ties to the Plymouth area. We were living with her mother and planned on finding our own place in the area. She got in a big argument with her mother, and her mom attempted to hit her with something in her hands. I stepped in, and told her mother what I really thought about her. I never liked her mother from the start and should've known that sooner. Anyways, her mom calls the sherriff on us, and they make us leave her residence. The problem was my girlfriend makes a lot of money, but spends even more than she makes. My problem was I wasn't earning enough. I only worked at the pharmacy for 1 month because my girlfriend and I decided to come back to Winston-Salem. Since being back, I've found it extremely difficult finding a decent job. I was in the military for 9 years and since I've been out, all I've ever did was retail management. I've had two interviews which I have been offered positions but turned them down because the pay was way too low. I've now had another interview with another great company. The interview went fantastic, both with the district manager and the regional manager of the company. It was for a general manager position. Now, the district manager is calling me for a position as an assistant manager, but I feel I'm selling myself out if I accept. I know I can be a great manager at one of their stores, but now all they say is that assistant manager position is all that's available. Why would I be interviewed for general manager and then only be offered assistant manager? My girlfriend has two children from a previous marriage. She makes a lot of money but is so far in debt, it's unbelievable. I don't have as much debt, but some. It has felt like I'm making her situation worse and her situation is making me worse. I ended it tonight with her. I'm feeling really bad because I have hurt her. I feel worse hurting her than if someone I loved had hurt me. She always treated me well and has always wanted the best for me. She told me tonight that she was hoping we would be married and that she would be my wife. I think our current situation has made me not love her as much. Actually, I was beginning to feel that I didn't love her at all but I didn't want to hurt her. She works very long days in a stressful position at a local hospital. I can only imagine what kind of day she is going to have tomorrow while she is at work. I do truly feel that she loves me and would do anything for me. I wish I could say I felt the same about her, but I don't. We've been together for 13 months, but I've felt I should have ended it a long time ago. My mom has been helping me financially until I find a job. She has been real depressed lately. She has never complained to me about giving me money not one time. This past Friday, my mom was admitted to a mental hospital and I'm blaming myself. I think I am worrying her so much with my unemployment that's the reason she was admitted. In the past, I've just been used to a higher income and now with the bad economy and all, I just can't seem to find or land the job I need. I have to have enough money to pay my bills and to be able to see my only son that lives in Colorado. Things are not looking good and I just might end up in there with my mom. Should I accept this position as an assistant manager when I know it's not going to be enough money for me? Did I do the right thing concerning my girlfriend? Do you think I'm responsible for my mom being in a mental hospital? Help, I'm lost and this manager needs to be managed. Sorry, so long. Please forgive me for that.
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