i had an abortion about a month ago. and i regret it so much. i thought it was the right thing to do (because i'm only 15) but i feel like i made the worst decision i could ever make. everyday i think about it, and it never gets better. if i could have one wish for the rest of my life, it would be to travel back in time and keep my baby :'(. i hate myself so much for this decision. everyone told me it was the "best" decision. and maybe it was, but how come i don't feel that way inside? me and my boyfriend don't talk about it much because it makes him upset to, and i don't like to talk about it much. but i don;t know what to do anymore, i cry about it everyday and it never leaves my mind. i get awful dreams and i'm traumatized by that day. people say it will only get better in time, but i dont feel like it will. i go out and i see babys, pregnant women, and the other night i was at dinner and this women was showing her friend her ultrasound pictures, and it made me want to die inside
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