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i just want to explain my episodes i has have and that i remember each one and every detail everything started when my baby was 10 weeks old evything started with a simple depresion and anxiety then in became scary when i start having suicidal thoughs toward my kids my husband and myself i realized i need help that night when the anxiety depresion and the thoughs increased i knew i need it help so i call an abulance and while the paramedic where asking me questions i entered in a mild phychotic state where i was unable to talk and i feel like another person the rush me to the er and put me in a room with close observation and from there they same me to the mental hopital where they baker-act me the next day i start medications they put me on paxil for depresion klonopin for the anxiety and a low dose of seroquel an antyphychotic 5 days later i was release everything was find i started to feel better and everything seems to be normal 3 weeks after i was in waltmart trying to fill a prescription for my anxiety medication i didnt have any single pill so i was panic to have a nerveos in there in front of everyone the pharmacist notice i was nervous and that i need it fast so she told me 15 minutes they weRE the longest 15 minutes of my life then i run to a water fountain and i took my pill on the way out i started feeling dizziness and i notice i wasnt ok something stronger than me took power of my mind and i become another person but i didnt know what i was doing i was laughing screaming while i was driving home i was 80 miles in a place where i supposed to be 55 miles but god were wacthing OVER me cause i get home safely by that time my kids werent with me i sent aracelis to puerto rico right after they baker act me the first time and nicole also the 3 oldest were with their dad like i was saying as soon as i get home my sister that live near by saw me and notice i wasnt fine she took me to her home i was hugging her kissing her beleiving her husband was mine then my sister call the police cause i get a baseballl bat and i went into her neighboor house where a guy where there and he never open his home door thatnk god!! i was runniNg in front of the cars after that the police came they were thinking i was just laying about my state but when my sister show them all the medication i was taking they believe i was very agressive so the sat me on a chair and call an ambulance caus emy sister call the wrong people i try to hit the police men too an ambulance arrive took me to the er again same thing happen but my phychotic state was worst i took my shirt off get a blanket and i was holding it like a baby i was breasfeeding that blanket an doctor came and saw everything so they send me to the mental hospital again that episode lasted 3 hours!!!!

6 DAYS LATER I WAS RELEASE WITH OTHER MEDICATIONS MOOD STABALIZERS ANTYPHYCHOTICS DRUGS AND OTHERS BUT I DONT REMEMEBER VERY WELL BUT THE MEDICATION THEY GAVE ME MAKE ME VERY SICK SO I STTOPED THEM AND I LET THEM KNOW SO THEY KEEP ME WITH THE SEROQUEL AFTER THAT I HAVE A COUPLE OTHER EPISODES ONE I WAS COMPLETLY ALONE IN MY HOME EARLIER THAT DAY I BEGGED MY HUSBAND TO STAY WITH ME BUT HE LEFT AND LEAVE ME LIKE 1 HOUR LATER I BECAME PHYCHOTIC AGAIN THAT TIME I GET ONE OF MY DAUGHTER DOLLS BELIVING WERE CELY I RUN TO MY NEIGBOOR HOME AND GET HER MOOPS THEN I WAS RUNNING ALL MY NEIBORHOOD WITH THAT MOOP I WENT BACK HOME RUN TO MY OTHER NEIGBOOR GET HIS SHOES BRING THEM HOME RUNNING AROUND LIKE A LITTLE GIRL I EVEN WHERE STOOLING STUFF I WAS CRAZY MY FAMILY WHERE THERE THE WHOLE TIME BUT SOMETIMES THEY JUST CANNOT CONTROL ME I WAS PUT IN A HIGHER DOSE OF MEDICATION AND IT HELP 2 MONTHS LATER I STOP THE MEDICATIONS IS BEEN 13 DAYS SINCE.

WILL I RELAPSE?? MY BABY IS 7 MONTHS NOW

THEY SAY I WAS BIPOLAR I SAY PPP POSTPARTUM PHYCHOSIS

Answer 1

WOW, sounds bi-polar to me. You need to dee that Dr that RX you the medications ASAP. You should never just stop a medication without your DR's ok. This can be very dangerous.  

Answer 2

You definitely need to contact your doctor asap and tell them that you have stopped your medication. You will most likely have another psychotic episode. Please-when you find a medication that works and that you can live with it's side effects, do NOT stop taking that medication without talking to your doctor!! Please do not allow your children to be alone with you until you have talked to your doctor..you don't want to hurt one of them during an episode. If you start to feel like you are headed towards an episode, please call 911..do not hesitate. Also, it can take several weeks or even a month before you start having withdrawal symptoms or a psychotic episode..so please get help now.  

Answer 3

Yes, you could very easily slip and have another episode if you have stopped your meds. The worst thing a person that is bi-polar can do is stop their meds. The meds are what got you stable and kept you stable. Stopping them is the way wrong thing to do unless your doctor told you to stop taking them. Call your doc and let them know that you have stopped taking them and let the doc know how you are doing w/o the meds, but do not hesitate to call your doc if you start feeling off again.