Borderline personality disorder...PLEASE HELP ME ITS SERIOUS?

Question

I have been dignosed with borderline personality disorder and post tramtic stress disorder and its been over 8 months now … and I feel crappy to day I feel just down in the dumps I’m on medication of 20mg zyprexa and 225mg of effexor XR and I don’t know what to do.. I don’t feel bord I feel content but down in the dumps.

I love my husband so much we have three children together but I think I’m attracted to females as well… I would never ruin what I got with my husband but this has been on my mind the whole time its hard everyday I struggle with it, maybe I’m bi sexual

I have always been fasinated with females… but I love my husband so much what do you think? I would never leave him he is my everything but I am attracted to female when I’m alone or somewhere I look at the females to see If they are pretty etc. but I don’t even look at men apart from my husband I love him but I look at females too see how pretty they are etc but my husband is so angry about it.. but I only truly love him he is my husband and I only want to be with him.

Can you please help me out?

What is causing me to think about this?!!!

And why is it that I don’t feel bord but I feel content but I also feel down and unhappy at the same time, what do I do?

Any one ith BPD and feel the same let me know please??

Answer 1

Sorry to say this but BPD is one of the worst there is. You are not going to know whether you are up or down or sideways from one minute to the next.

And nobody is going to be able to trust you. What is causing you to think like that is the disorder.  If you can possibly do it, resist thoughts and ideas that are off-base, and if you don't know what is off-base call your counselor who will tell you. You will have a hard time making the distinction on your own.

Answer 2

well i cant answer everything but the reason u check out other girls could possibly be that ur jealous. maybe they have something u think u lack. maybe u think ur husband will like them better or something. its kind of like ur checking out ur competition sort of. except that ur married so u have nothing to worry about if u focus on ur husband and kids and not other women. ur content that u r with husband but ur unhappy bc u feel u rnt as pretty, skinny, smart, etc. or something as other women and i feel they will take ur husband from u. thats a total shot in the dark but it could be the reason. who knows. good luck

Answer 3

I have it as well, and I have had these thoughts too, I mean I don't have a husband, so I can't help with that part, but I would say its okay to fantasize, everyone does it. I mean as long as you still have feelings for him and don't rely on your fantasies for sexual pleasure, then I personally think its fine. Or maybe they aren't fantasies, but its okay to look as long as you don't take it further that you would with another man. BPD can be hard, trust me I know, but hang in there. Its so unpredictable, and confusing but theres not much you can do about it soo stick with ur fam. Good Luck....I really mean it!

Answer 4

You  really need to appreciate what you have right in front of you instead of wondering and fantasizing about what it would be like to have something you don't have.The grass isn't always greener on the other side. If you have a good husband that appreciates you and wonderfull children that adore you why would you throw it all away because you THINK you might be bi sexual. Your making yourself  unhappy and you are stressing yourself out. There are people out there who  wish they could have what you have .

IF GOD BRINGS YOU TO IT, HE WILL BRING YOU THROUGH IT.

  

       Happy moments, Thank God.

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       Quiet moments, worship God.

       Painful moments, trust God.

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Answer 5

Go see your doc asap. I believe feeling bi-sexual when your really not is a symptom of borderline disorder. Perhaps you need more counseling,or different meds,or a higher dosage. You wont really know till you see your doc again,so please go asap.  

Answer 6

What is causing me to think about this?!!!

BPD causes instability in moods, interpersonal relationships, self-image, and behavior. Its your illness talking, not what you really think.

Answer 7

BPD is addressed in section 15, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris Be aware that, because of their upbringing, people suffering from BPD tend to see things in terms of black and white, rather than shades of grey, and often idealise, then devalue, in relationships. They also tend to have a great fear of abandonment, and sometimes go to extreme lengths to prevent it.

Use the locators, in section 1, at ezy build, and the phone book, to find a therapist who uses Dialectical Behavio(u)ral Therapy, or get a good book on the subject, and give to a therapist using Cognitive Behavio(u)ral Therapy (fairly common, and probably nearby) and ask that it be incorporated into your treatment. Read  "I hate you: don't leave me." by Jerold J. Kreisman, m.d. and Hal Stras.  A workbook that offers good coping skills is Marsha Linehan's Skills Training Manual (a DBT Workbook). Try http://www.amazon.com/ for these.  ~~~  THERAPISTS: It depends to a certain extent on what your tentative diagnosis is: people with Borderline Personality Disorder, for example, need to be challenged from time to time, by therapists using DBT. A good therapist will get you to examine the appropriateness of your actions, or thought patterns, and offer the occasional suggestion.

Some therapists, however, work from an "I know best" basis, and, even though they may actually do know best, their approach often isn't as conducive to progress as others, who take more of a middle position. On the other hand, there are those who try to be your friend, when what you really need is expert help. I suggest that you try at least 3 new therapists, and initially select one you feel most comfortable with, because a good degree of rapport (which takes time to build) can help a lot, with therapy.    OOOOOOOO

Closely examine the http://1-800-therapist.com/   website, and use the locators, in section 1, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris and phone book. Personally, I'd opt for a psychologist who believes in only recommending minimal necessary medication, if at all, because they don't issue prescriptions, so are considerably less likely to be involved with the rewards, and inducements offered by sales reps from "big pharma": the large drug companies, to psychiatrists (there are links to, or articles on how psychiatry has become corrupted by money from drug companies,  and "how doctors are being manipulated", in section 1: worth reading!      

      It's important to not only feel comfortable with your therapist, but also to know about their qualifications, and the type of therapy used (read section 1). Some people are in therapy for many years, and pay a small fortune in fees, so recognise that therapists may have a vested interest in keeping their patients coming back. It pays the rent, and permits them to feel that they are fulfilling a useful function in life.    

      For this reason, I believe that, unless there is a need for a specific type of therapy, such as Dialectical Behavio(u)ral Therapy, for Borderline Personality Disorder, or EMDR therapy, for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, or ongoing support, in the case of people with bipolar disorder, who find they function best this way, it is a good idea to start out with a psychologist who uses Cognitive Behavio(u)ral Therapy. It often can accomplish all it is capable of, in 6 months, and to fix that time limit in the first session. In that way, the therapist knows that there is only a limited window of opportuntiy to do what they can, and there is no unconscious motivation to attempt to draw things out.    

          If, at the end of that time, you believe you could benefit from a little more therapy, then you can extend it, but I'd advise the therapist a few weeks before the final session, in case they are considering taking on a new patient, leaving you "high, and dry" committed, and without options, except to find someone else. Learn to assess, and rate your therapist, after a while: sometimes it's better to move on, and find someone who you feel can help you more, but not if you've just reached an unpleasant part of the therapy, which part of you would rather avoid.  

PTSD is addressed in sections 33 - 34 at ezy build: seek professional EMDR, preferably before the DBT (not quick!). Most humans are born bisexual, and social pressures play a large part in its ultimate expression.