Borderline personality disorder and children ...please answer?

Question

Hello,

Today I feel weird, I feel like my blood is going to boil and I’m going to go overboard.

Today I spoke to children service’s (they removed my kids as some text was put on a baby forum and this was because of risk of harm and I was in a dissociative episode when this happened and was dignosed with bpd and ptsd )

and I haven’t seen them in 6 months as one day I was in a dissociative episode and sent them a nasty email abusing them and they cut my contact and I have been quiet and behaving and see my social worker twice a week and my psychiatrist once a month.

and she said unless I get a report from the specialist Doctor which told me it’s a min 2 year wait. That I wont be seeing the kids unless they get a report from them as my psychiatrist said he is not expert but knows I have BPD. So they don’t believe I even have BPD? I Know I suffer from this illness I live with it everyday! And I know its not nice I live each day and it’s a battle and its even harder that they don’t know what its like , suffering and trying to work to get the kids contact back.

I just need to vent as its so hard trying to get better and I don’t need their **** either.

All we want is a phone call or something knowing that the kids are ok, ?

Anyone know what can I do? I’m in Australia I have went to the central complaints department and they made the team leader speak to me and she was real nasty.

She said she needs doctor report from the specialist doctor but that doctor specialises in BPD and that’s a 2 year waiting list surley they cant make me wait 2 years too see the kids?

What can I do I’m going crazy missing my babies and I don’t know what to do?

If you can help please reply.

I don’t know what else to do or say my psychiatrist has said I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Ptsd. And the department are trying to say that there Psychologist knows better and she said that I can’t distiquich the difference between fantasy and reality and that I have some form of mental illness and I have a delusion of my life. And I seen another psychiatrist and she said the same thing that I have some form of mental illness..?

Answer 1

Its obvious you have a problem and its better for your children if you find a solution before you get them back. Just think of it as god giving you time to get your life together.  Everything happens for a reason and nothing will happen before its time. I know it has to be difficult to have your children taken from you but if cps won't give your children back, make sure you do everything in your power to get well.  

Answer 2

Mental health in australia sucks having know a few people with realy bad problems and they things they had /have to deal with when it comes to they m/health system a useful tool in getting your self happy is to get in volved with a self help group a good one I know of is grow look them up in the phone book  and see if this helps take a friend along at first if you want but it is some thing that will help unfortunatlye daeling with cps is some thing i would not wish on any one keep a tape recording of your convesations with them and dont write threating emails ect it will not help your case at all take it easy  and use the help thats offered even if you think its bad theese things arent sorted over night