Borderline personality disorder..and harming please read !!?

Question

Hi

I have a question why is it that I feel so numb and so cruel at times I feel like I’m such a looser and have no friends I have tried to make friends and they have just been so cold and cruel to me and it bites me in the butt when I have tried to make friends ,

I feel like I want to hurt someone or something and I feel so cold and hurt, I know I have harmed in the past before I was diagnosed with BPD I put a dog in a chest freezer alive and he died as a result of being froze to death? Do you think there is something more than Borderline personality disorder and ptsd? And i feel numb and sad after doing it is this normal and what does it mean?

Please answer me any advice is welcome!

I don’t feel like killing humans I like hurting them with words and hurting there feelings etc but I like each time I hurt my husband like this afternoon I dug my fingers into his arm and it hurt him but I liked it and wanted to do it again !!

Is this normal please help….?

Candice xx

Answer 1

Are you Bipolar?  Do you have an anxiety disorder? :( Poor doggie..

Answer 2

I'm not sure what you have, but that sounds serious.

Have you been to any other counseling besides the time you went to the psych ward? I strongly suggest you consider that.

Answer 3

I think that's not good.

Do you think new habits can help? Jogging, walking in park, playing music, cooking new meals, etc. something that you like, not the things that you should not do ha.

Answer 4

Have a quick review of your question and count the number of times you used the word "I"

Your main focus seems to be on yourself.

Try to view situations from a wider perspective. Try to includ the viewpoints of others in your actions.

  Continue to seek profesional guidence.