Borderline talking to therapist?

Question

I think that at the time the diagnoses are given (such as Schizoaffective and Bipolar) they MIGHT apply, but I live my life in phases and the only ones that have stuck are depression and self-injurer. My therapist told me she thinks I’m Borderline based on something I wrote her and now every time I have a bad week she blames it on “me being BPD again”. I think she could be right, since she’s the only mental health professional I’ve ever really gotten to know, but admitting it would mean that something is wrong with me (besides my overactive imagination) and that I need to get help when I’m so comfortably low that being anything else for too long scares me. And it’s so conflicting because I know I need the proper diagnosis so I can get treatment, but other times I just want to slip away from it all and hole myself up in my room and not deal with anything.

I don’t know how to tell her because then she’ll have been “just kidding” and think I’m digging for a diagnosis that doesn’t fit and will ship me off to somebody else.

Answer 1

Best to be fully honest with your counselor, hiding anything or trying to slip one by them is just wasting your time and theirs.

Get to the bottom of what's going on with you, do the work, face the fears and you will be on the road to better mental health.

Answer 2

you said "but admitting it would mean that something is wrong with me"

I've felt this way too. but don't worry about classifications. just focus on getting help. You should be honest with her. And you could always get a second opinion