The quiet guy (M) I posted about earlier and one of my Best(girl)Friends (C). I knew I was falling for M, once I got him talking to me, I tried to not, but it didn't work. I found out he liked C, it didn't affect me much. It wasn't until yesterday, that he had my other friend A to ask C out for him, and she said yes. I've tried to be happy for them, but I had to quit talking to M, b/c when I did it was more technically flirting with him. C is always telling how great she thinks M is, and I have to listen while it kills me inside to do so b/c I already knew. I never told C that I liked M, so she doesn't know. Last night I cried over it. Crying, Over. A GUY!! How pathetic is that!? M got used to me talking to him, but today I couldn't look at him, hear his voice, or hear his name, w/o being near tears. He noticed I was avoiding him, I know M did, because he stopped me after class and said, "Why won't you talk to me? Usually you talk to me. Why are you being so mean?" It practically killed me to hear that!
I guess I didn't know how hard I fell until I hit the ground...
What can I do? It's hurting him, It's hurting C, and it's hurting me. I want them to be happy, just not in front of me. I don't care if I hurt me, just not them.
How should I handle this?
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