Calling all people who have been in abusive relationships before!!!! please give me some advice!!!!!!!?

Question

these are my feelings on my abusive ex boyfriend sorry if i used no punctuation or if i sound like overwhelmed!

i think about you even when i dont want to think about you. i feel so hurt that you would do this to me that you would betray me and you said you loved me but you hurt me intentionally and i dont know why you would do this to me when all i tried to do was help you you hurt me badly when you knew that i had been hurt before and you hurt me int he same ways they did you didnt care about me i just thought you did if you really had cared you wouldnt have done anything of what you did its hard to forget it because i try to block out how i feel about you you apologizing to me would help me move on and its hard that you did so many bad things to me i am hurt and i cant forgive you now, i dont want to talk to you again and its hard that you turned some of my friends against me i know i shouldnt care but i still do im hurt and its hard to move on and its hard to heal right now i wish i could heal faster and i wish this wouldnt have happened to me i was naive and i regret trusting you i feel hurt and i feel no one can understand me i dont kjnow how to be happpy again and i wish you felt as bad as i did but i know you really didnt care about me. ( i broke up with him in may so i dont know why i still care about the break up :( some of the things he did was verbally and emotionally abused me and physically too :( please share some experiences and insight:(

Answer 1

I understand what you are saying, I am not you, but I can really relate to how you are feeling, because I'v been there myself.

Answer 2

Are you waiting for him to kill you before you stop caring.  He has never cared for you from the way beginning.  He just wanted someone to control and that was you.  Don't ever go back to him or to any relationship like that ever.  You are a very special person with a big heart and he knows how sensitive you are.  He will try again but you will need to be strong and ignore him .  If he tries to bother you at all report him to the cops and put a restraining order on him.  He won't be able to go near you.    You have to be strong.  You cannot love someone that keeps hurting you all the time.  It is just not right.  You are only 16 years old.  You have plenty of time to find someone that will love you for yourself.  Someone that will love you for the way you are inside and out.  There is no need to be abused emotionally or physically by anyone.  If you think that you cannot go without abuse then you need to go to counseling of some kind.  They will show you how to take care of yourself and show you how special you are.  You are worthy of so much better.  Good luck to you .