I'll be trying to get to sleep but i'll just start feeling really down,and begin crying.
I worry that i won't get anywhere in life,that my dreams won't come true and everyone will think i'm a failure.
I desperately want to prove i'm so much more to everyone - the kids at school who seem to hate me so much etc.
I've felt like this since forever - i think it stems from never knowing my dad and feeling he didn't want me and it was my fault.But it was always under control,i normally felt happy and content.
Recently though it's just gotten so much worse - i can't sleep at all.I'll stay up all night then all day thinking it will wear me out but it doesn't,coz i just start with these thoughts again.
It happens through out the day as well and none of my friends even listen,i don't wanna talk to my mum coz well we just don't talk about my dad or anything and i'd mention him.
I'm not really close to anyone who can help me,which makes me feel lonely and doesn't help the situation.
I'm just desperate to be able to sleep and stop feeling so down all the time.
Help?
Thankyou so much.
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