Can a girl be a trigger for depression returning?

Question

I was diagnosed with depression about five months ago, and even though I never let on, it was pretty severe. I was kind of embarrassed because I was a minor and if the doctor knew exactly what I was thinking he'd have had to tell my mother. And me and her don't really have the best relationship. Anyway I took medication for about two months and stopped seeing the doctor. I was feeling much better, but I was still having trouble controlling my sleeping habits. But still I was relieved that I wasn't having those thoughts anymore.

Skip ahead a couple of months, I was putting my bad past behind me and only focusing on things that made me happy. Then I meet this girl and we talk to each other for a couple of days and then she goes back to her home far away. Nothing happened between us, she has a boyfriend and all, we just clicked. It didn't hit me then, we just had a lot in common and I felt we could talk about a lot. Then she left and weeks later I can't stop thinking about her. And every time I do I start feeling like **** again. All the little things that remind me of her just make it worse and worse. And more and more I'm starting to think about suicide again. It just pops into my head every time I think of her and sometimes I just punch myself to try and stop thinking about this. And there's no way to try and get in touch with her without making a complete *** of myself. Cause' I know she doesn't feel the way I do.

I'm worried I'm going to get worse and worse again, or will this all pass over? Can this girl really be a trigger for my depression coming back? I could use some suggestions, if there are any, on what I should do?

Thanks.

Answer 1

Sounds like the girl made you feel un-depressed but then she left and you are dysphoric once more.  An attractive friend is like a powerful drug and unquestionably you go through withdrawal symptoms when she is no longer around.  Maybe you should get out more, find your own girlfriend if you can bear the arduous and lonely quest that can be.  Try not to obsess about things.  Antidepressant therapy might help if you are amenable to such a thing. See your doctor or mental health professional for some confidential advice.  

Answer 2

Everytime that you think of her replace that thought with another more beneficial thought, for you.  If you make a habit of this it will become easier with time and you will see that it was an infatuation that just wasnt meant to be.

Answer 3

even for a person w/o your condition, the "almost flings or relationships" and be the hardest thing to get over. its weird too. we wonder what could have been with ppl we hardly know.i've experienced it myself and how much it can get into your everyday thoughts. its extremely weird. like we r sad about someting we never had being taken, yet we ever had it after all, so it couldnt have been taken. it makes no sense. how do u know that she doesn fell the same about you? go back to your doctor, and know that your whole life is in front of you, and it could b great, but if you comitt suiucude you will be taking that all away, butnot really even solvde one problem really. plus, it affects those around u. believe me, the last thing your friends, parents, relatives, teachers etc wants to do is go to your funeral and accept that they wont get to see you eveyday. imagine how crushed u would be if someone u loved did that to u, and to themselves. good luck, God Bless.

Answer 4

yep, dosnt have to be a specific girl either. in my case- ive been rejected by girls every time ive had the courage to approach them. as such ive never had a girl friend. I got to a point where i now feel inferior and just dont bother with girls at all. I was clinically diagnosed with sever depression three yrs ago and have been in regular consolling ever since. including social phobia group therapy. even will all that, If I see a girl i like or friends ask why i havent got a girl friend i end up in a state where just want to stay home. Ive even gone out with a female psychologists where she was able to observe for her self various girls rejecting me ( the hot, average and not so average looking girls). She had no explaination as to y it happens to me.