I get verbally abused & sometimes physically abused by my drug addict/alcoholic mom.She calls me fat, ugly, wish she never had me, abuser, phsyco, no one likes me, loner, stupid, teachers hate me, f****s, stop eatting all my food I pay for it, stay out of the kitchen, all you are is a fat piece of lard, wish i never had you, c*nt, loser, go back in your dungeon (i stay in my room), and that's ONLY things I can put here. I can't even say all the censored words she says.. Every name in the book basically. She even through knifes at me.. Says she wants to murder me.. So I don't know what else to do but cuss back at her...
I never go outside because she SCREAMS and the walls are paper thin everyone can hear us. And I'm afraid of the looks I'll get. I'm afraid everyone judges.
I have a lot of behavior problems at school she uses this against me all the time...saying the teachers don't like me, and I'm a L*****n because I talk about a specific teacher a lot.
I think I have Bi Polar or anxiety stemming from my past...In the past month I have used drugs and alcohol (something I said I would never do considering how I saw how my mother acts)but I needed something to help me get away from this.I take the drugs from my moms stash and she obv. doesn't know & I don't want her to know.. I do it to Help me get away from all of this depression I have. I really would like to go to a therapist or psychologist. I'm only 14 almost 15, would I be able to go by myself??? Because there's NO WAY I am going with my mother. Also if I tell them all this, will they report it to CPS and will I get removed from my mothers house?? Can I go to a live in rehab program without my mother so I won't turn to drugs and alcohol even though I'm not addicted to it???
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