I've been gettn sick w/random 2 off-on symptoms lately basically mosta this month (b4 & aftr boyfriend & i broke^), but im not focusn on that past 4 this issue. I wona get over my ex bo/f patrick bc im hurting, when we broke^...he knda sed he was gona try 2 work things out 4 us so we could be 2gethr, but so far I haven't seen ne progress of ne sort on that issue. He sed he's gona be a snr @ his school, & he knda sed that he missz me (last I checket on/asked him bout that was 8-20-8), now he's saying that he dk if we should get back 2gethr again. Later I told him 2 tell me that if he doesn't think that we r gona be able 2 work it out either: --2 be friends like b4 we got 2gethr, or --2 try 2 possibly get us back 2gethr then he should just tell me...max time I wantd 2 giv him so he can give me a reply on that (but didnt give him a warning) was the next (8-21-8) day @ 2p bc I sent him that text around 2p on that same 2zday...in the end he didn't answer & I know he has a lot of free time on his hands bc when I asked him what he was gona do 4 the resta the summer vacation (basically nothing to do). Our relationship was from fri 6-13th (near 6:32p) 2 fri 8-8-8 (b2wn 2-3a, I was kinda worried I wouldnt be able 2 see him again bc my mom & I got in2 an argument the night before the break up..that didnt stop until round late 11p/midnight).
A few nights ago (8-21-8) I had a dream that when I woke^, I started crying. I recalled that when I 1st met patrick on my 15th bday in '07, my little sister kinda non-stop talkt bout him bc she kinda met him b4 I even met him...I always got curious bc I had no idea who he was+nor how he lookt like (yet his mom & my mom kinda work 2gethr @ the same place)...what I mean 2 say is that I was told that my sister had/has a crush on him. But after I met him & got 2 slowly know him, she stopt talkn bout him instantly+got mad when i brought him ^ (aftr i had then met him)...I got abit curious 2 wona know him alil more & started asking bout him. (...a reporter/editor 4 the school's newsppr...) Here's what my dream was:
My mom, my little sister, kim, me, patrick's mom Myrna & patrick all met up together 2 watch a movie...i brought my note pad 2 write notes 4 a review bout the movie bc of something. There were 2 empty seats b2wn my little sister (1 on her left which was b2w2n her & Myrna, & the 2nd was & her right) & patrick (which was 2 his left). I kinda sat next 2 patrick & found myself later slightly resting my head on his right shoulder, suddenly he gets ^ 2 switch over 2 the seat b2wn his mom & my little sister. The moment he sits down putting his right arm on the arm rester...as he is looking at the movie screen, he kinda turnd his hand (right inside palm) facing ^ 2 my little sister. She took his hand w/no hesitation, then w/in seconds (as they were holding hands) he waved his arm over & across my sister (like he used 2 do 2 me when we were 2gethr) so she could lean her back inside/on his chest. I rmmbrd that me & him used 2 do that when we were 2gethr...
...suddenly, that's when I woke^ at like 6:30a...& almost as if it was an instant reaction that I had cried, still rmmbring those times that me & him would be like that when we were going out & hanging out in the meantime while we were 2gethr; well im glad it stopt right there bc if it had continued from that point rather than ending, i think i would have been in a worse condition in crying & hurting bc of that very dream...
ps:do not answer if u r gona say something like "too long"/something kinda rude rather than being someone whoz helping me find the meaning of a possibility of 'why' i did have this dream.
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