in 1999 i got arrested for a common assault , i hade big problems at the time with rage and aggression, prior , id been bullied severley all the way through my life......and i got alot of bottled up anger for years.
at the time i wasnt getting help in the community for my psychiatric problems.....i was being turned away being told i dont need any help.....life was h**l for me back then.......i was being ostracised everywhere i went.
when i got arrested for the common assault, ( kicking someone ).....when in jail i told psychiatrist who assessed me really bad and bad things so they would take me seriously.......i exaggerated my illness.......but on paper i made myself out to be a monster .........so they sent me to a psychiatric hospital.
i said alot of horrific things to psychiatrists so i would get psychiatric help i wasnt getting in the community and so they wouldnt send me back out into the community..
also because at the time i wanted to be somewhere safe and secure.
when i got to the psyche hospital, i soon got the shock of my life and found out it was no comfortable secure place.
my life as been h**l all the way through, im 30 now, been diagnosed with bpd , borderline and ptsd symptoms........im waiting for group therapy..
ive sadly had problems with rage and aggression all my adult life due to severe bullying over a long period.
ive missed out in life, never accomplished any relationships, employment or qualifications.....i live in a 1 bedroom flat on disability, i own nothing except an old computer.
i have a minor criminal history, a psychiatric history, aggression history.......im starting my life from scratch.
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